God is changing me.
It doesn’t take leaving the country. It doesn’t take a BIG, DRAMATIC life changing event. It just takes saying, “yes.”
To prepare myself for the life He has for me, I have been breaking down walls that I spent the last 29 years building.
Thinking error #1- “You only need your family”
I had life figured out. You find a special mate that promises to conquer life with you and you battle it out together. Friends need not apply.
“I don’t love you anymore…..”
Words like these flip your universe upside down.
Luckily, when my husband of 7 years was telling me he had no more love for me, God was standing firm next to me telling me that He still did.
My mind was chaotic. One repeating question remained thick, “What is love?”
My mom would ask me and my husband that a lot before we got married. “What is love?”
….”love….uh, love is….waiting….love is….LOVE CONQUERS ALL!!…or something like that.”
Once what I called LOVE walked out the door, I decided, “love is a lie.”
God was gentle and patient and didn’t tell me I was wrong right then. As He does, He waited….He loved….He supported.
“What is love? What is love? What is love…..?”
Then, it clicked.
God. God is love. How AMAZING His love is for us. To be abandoned, ignored, told “I DON’T LOVE YOU!”…and yet His love for us never changes, never fades, never ends. How amazing….How undeserving we are…
This is when I pulled God out of that Sunday morning box. This is when I started trusting Him. This is when I started saying, “yes!”
God has put so much love in my life. I have so many new relationships that I am grateful for and cherish. I didn’t have that before. It wasn’t that people didn’t try to become my friends…it was that I wouldn’t let them in. I had a few secure relationships and since I was used to moving around a lot, it was easier to not invest in many more.
Seeing the support pour in from you all is overwhelming. Thank you for donating. Thank you for buying a t-shirt. Thank you for talking to me about the Race. I hope you now know a little more how special YOU are to me. I hope you know a little more why our friendship overwhelms my soul. I hope you know, I love you.
Please keep in mind my upcoming deadlines.
- $3,500 – Due 9/25/2015 (Fundraising Goal 1)
- $10,000 – Due 12/18/2015 (Fundraising Goal 2)
- $13,000 – Due 2/29/2016 (Fundraising Goal 3)
- $16,562 – Due 4/30/2016 (Fundraising Goal 4)
I feel secure hitting the first goal by 9/25/15 BUT in order to meet the goal on 12/18/15 I have to raise $1,164 a month. So far June was the best donation month I’ve had at $850. THANK YOU ALL DONORS!!!
If you have been putting off donating, THIS IS MY CRY!! PLEASE SUPPORT ME!!! If you haven’t thought about donating, why not?!? Without YOU (YES! YOU!!!!), I don’t go.
