Hey y’all, it’s been awhile.. A little too long, actually! So here goes…
For the past few weeks, or even up to a few months, I have really been struggling with so many things. The items at the top of my list include: doubts, fear, school issues, and many other things. What God has done is answer each one with proofs that this is his plan.
My Doubt: I have been struggling with believing that this really is God’s plan for me. The “what if”s and the “how come”s and the “but”s that have run through my mind go from everywhere from “what if this is just what I want” to jealousies of people who seemingly have their lives together (I know they don’t, but still).
His Answers: showing me that not everyone has everything together. Showing me that I am supposed to go on this trip by having anonymous donations put in my account.
My Fear: can I actually do this? Can I leave my family and friends for 9 months? Can I trust that He will carry me through all of what we will be facing in the field?
His Answers: “‘Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,’ declares the Lord.” Jeremiah 1:8
Through my fears and through my doubts, God has shown me that He is with me and He is carrying me through all of this.
