“To have found God and still to pursue Him is the soul’s paradox of love”
A. W. Tozer
I have a tendency to overthink things. People give me words or I read something in the Bible or I have a conversation with someone and I can think about it for days. I can get lost in my thoughts and I enjoy it. I like thinking through every detail. I like to play the “why” and “what if” games. And often, God speaks so loudly in the times I get away from all else to think about Him.
The beginning of the Philippines was chaotic. My mind was filled with questions and not very many answers (fun thing about Our Lord- answers to questions almost always lead to more questions) and just being at Kids International Ministries (KIM) can feel a little crazy, there is so much going on that for the first week and a half or so we continued to find out about more ministry opportunities. I wanted to find one that I could really pour into, when the question “what should we do?” was asked, the response was always “what do you like to do?” but in the middle of all of the chaos I knew God was calling me to be silent. Stop asking questions and instead rest in who He is and who He says I am but I had no clue how to do that or where to start.
Fast forward, we found out about a ministry started by the travel coordinator at KIM, Myles. A bible study/ feeding program for kids from about 6-18. As I was listening to them one night it hit me like a glorious ton of bricks- the way the kids sing (horribly but in a really beautiful way) and their faith in what the Bible says and their desire to know more about this God that loves them so much; that is exactly what God wanted from me. These kids had it perfect. They wanted to know more about God because they love Him, it was never about getting answers or figuring Him out. It was so simple, it was less about getting lost in the “why” or “how” and more about a seeking and increase in the Father that led to action.
that they may know that you alone,
whose name is the Lord,
are the Most High over all the earth.
Psalm 83:18
Father, continue to overwhelm me with the beauty of simplicity and put me in situations where I am called to action.
