If anyone is willing, I am in desperate need of prayer. The closer I get to the departure date for the World Race, the more I am struggling to keep my head above the “waves” that are threatening to take me down. Satan hates it when I follow God’s plan for my life so it makes sense that life is getting more difficult as I approach September.
Past: Just like any other 20-something year old girl out there (at least that I’ve met), I’ve gone through and done stuff that I am not proud of and in fact am ashamed of. As confusing as it sounds, I have been working very hard to learn how to accept God’s love, forgiveness, grace, and mercy for me. Every week brings a new spiritual battle and I need all the support I can get. For the past few weeks, Satan has been reminding me of every bad thing that has ever happened in my life (whether it is something I did or something that happened to me) and it has been wreaking havoc on my emotions. Now, as much as Satan likes to try to convince me of this, I am no fool. It doesn’t take Sherlock Holmes to figure out that an abundance of negativity means I’m under attack. I’ve been spending quite a bit more time with positive, inspiring, and encouraging people lately and it has been my saving grace.
Summary: please pray that God will continue to send me amazing encouraging people, that He will give me strength to get through these difficult times, that He will give me wisdom to know the difference between His voice, my voice, and the Devil’s creepy whispers, and that He will make me brave enough to stand my ground and to fight for the spiritual advances that I’ve been making.
Present: I don’t have the emotional stamina to figure out the appropriate words that would explain my reasoning for this prayer request today – this one will have to wait another couple of days.
Summary: Please pray that God will give me the strength to stay single, peace in my times of emotional distress, joy in my times of loneliness, hope for a better TODAY, and encouragement to make it to tomorrow with a spring in my step. Oh, also: I need wisdom and maturity right now like a fish needs water.
Future: Same excuse as the “present” part. I have….let’s just say A LOT of things coming up very quickly. Even now as I type out this blog post, I’m sweating over everything I should’ve gotten done today but wasn’t able to get to. I have asked God to teach me how to have faith in Him and His plan. It’s like I’m crazy- who says “yes” to God’s plan BEFORE figuring out how to have faith in it?? I must’ve missed something in Sunday school – it was probably somewhere between learning about Jonah and the whale and all the awful plagues of Egypt. Oh well. I guess I’m learning it now!
Summary: I desperately need prayer for this one. I don’t usually get nervous or anxious about anything. Both of those are new practices that I discovered this year. The only other times I’ve had panic attacks all had something to do with dolls (I specifically recall a time when some beloved friends of mine hid a Chucky doll in my bed covers…not a good night…not a good night for anyone involved….I’m obviously over it). I’m not doing a good job summarizing this…sorry.
The Summary of the Summary:
Please pray that God would calm my nerves, that He would bring me peace, that I will learn how to trust in both His plan for my life AND His perfect timing. I also would love for you all to pray for my anxiety! While listening to a friend talk about her anxiety problems last night, I realized that I suffer from the same ordeals (just not as bad). I know that God did not call me to the mission field to see me shaking in my boots, sweating up a storm, and freaking out over something that I should know is under His control.
Summary of this post: If you feel led to pray for me about something else, by all means, indulge yourself. You have my blessing- I’m sure I probably need prayer for that too. If God is calling you to reach out or share a word with me, I’d love to hear from you! You can comment on here, message me on facebook, e-mail me, or try REALLY hard to send me a telepathic message. I’ll let you know if any of those methods have worked 😉 Until next bloggeroo!
The crazy chick trying to keep it together,
~ Vashti W.
PS: I posted some pictures so that I’m not just words on your screen anymore! Now you all can put a face to my craziness! Sorry if I’m not as awesome as you had imagined. Totally NOT sorry if I’m MORE awesome than you imagined! Yeah…I apologize, it’s bed time. *rockstar scream* I LOVE YOU WORLD, GOODNIGHT!
