I have been in Puerto Barrios for six days now. We are partnering with a local Christian radio station here called Shofar ministries, our contact Paul has shown us There are many ministry opportunities here that we could pour ourselves into. everything from ministering at bars to the men and women there, To doing construction with local churches , or spending time at a local orphanage, and even just going and playing basketball, or football (soccer) with the older kids down at the park close by.
We have had a chance this first week to do everything I listed above, but today they asked us to find a place we would like to really get involved with, where we could start to build lasting relationships with the people here. We are here with another team as well, team Rama and it was funny to me because as we were talking about where we felt God is leading us, our two teams split back to its original teams logos, and Rama . Which again just says to me that how the teams were chosen were not by chance, or random.
This is also where I find myself torn. You see my team has chosen to go back to the orphanage and just help clean it up, and love on the kids there. When we were there the last time I met a little boy named Allen. He is about eight or nine years old, and I could tell right from the time we got there he wasn’t very happy, or excited about us. When all the other boys came out and we started playing football, he stayed back and just stared out the fence. We finally got him to come play, but it took some effort. Then as soon as the games were finished, and we were starting to say our goodbyes Allen disappeared. As we were driving back in the van, I was thinking, why would he just run off? Did we make him mad? But then I realized all he has ever known is goodbye, and he doesn’t like it, I mean who would like always being left and forgotten? I would hate it too. So this is where I find myself torn, I find myself asking the question if I go back and pour my heart out into this boy will it help? Will it be enough to show him that I care, or will it only bring more pain, more feelings of rejection? Its at this time I start saying; my God is big! he is big enough to show his love through me in an even shorter amount of time than I have here. And if I don’t believe that, then why am I here? Why have I left everything I know to come here.
So I have to believe Allen can be shown the glory and love of his creator in the short time I’m here. So I have to choose in!
