Angkor Wat in Cambodia
“God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called.”
This is truer to me today than ever.
4 months ago, I was asked to be a team leader over 5 other girls on our 40 person squad. I was hiding out, not wanting to lead because I was exhausted from a previous leadership position. But God found me and whispered to me that He wanted to redeem that.
I led those girls in His strength and we walked in some amazing things.
2 months ago, I heard the Lord saying that things were going to change again. Our squad leaders, Tiffany and Patrick will be going home after this month. They’ve already done the 11 month race and have come back to lead and teach our squad for the first four months. Then they raise up 2 new squad leaders to take their place. I thought it was rather presumptuous and a maybe little prideful,
but I felt the Lord whispering that He was preparing me for that position.
1 month ago, I felt the Lord whispering to me that my co-leader was going to be my friend, Andrew, an amazing man of God on another team. I didn’t really tell anyone because I wanted to see
if that voice I was hearing was really God’s.
1 week ago, Tiffany came to me in Pattaya and asked if I would squad lead alongside Andrew.
Andrew and I at Angkor Wat
God is teaching me that His calling is always bigger than our character. Something the World Race staff always talks about is wearing a big coat. I love this thought. When parents buy coats for growing children, they buy those coats a little bit bigger than necessary so that as the child grows, he can still wear the coat. At first that coat looks a little funny and big, but the child grows into it and eventually fits perfectly…only to grow out of it and need a new coat. This is exactly what God does with us. He calls us to things that are too big for us. We feel like we’re swimming in this calling and that we are too small to fill it up. But God grows our character to meet our calling. He calls us into big things…things that we’re not necessarily prepared for or feel adequate enough for. But He gives us that coat to wear and knows that we will grow into it and we’ll fill it well. And then someday, we will grow out of that coat and need a bigger one to grow into.
Thus, we are completely challenged, stretched, and transformed into bigger things.
I’ve had the whole range of emotions as I’ve stepped into this position of leadership. I’ve been excited, overwhelmed, struggled with feelings of inadequacy, fought off lies, laughed, cried, and a lot of other things. Most of all I’m humbled. Humbled that the God of the universe whispered into me… I heard the voice of my Creator. Humbled to lead 40 amazing people into a Spirit filled life. Humbled to experience such redemption in my view of leadership…going from hiding out at training camp to stepping into the squad leader with God confidence. Humbled that over the past few months He has been changing my passion for the ministries we work with to a passion for our squad to walk in freedom. Humbled that God is doing an amazing work in me and giving me a bigger calling.
So I won’t be on a team anymore. Andrew and I will travel to different teams and pour into our new team leaders and our squad. Please pray for us as we both step into this. Please pray for wisdom, discernment, and the ability to hear God’s voice and obey. Pray that we would have fun, that we would bring a freshness, and that we would empower others to go deeper in following the Spirit. We don’t know exactly what we’re doing, but we are going to just go for it.
Go big or go home is still the motto and we can’t wait to see how God delivers.
