"If you want to see something you've never seen…then you have to do something you've never done
" – Mama CThis has been a crazy good month! Had so much life spoken into me from the people of Rwanda and also my fellow squad mates! You know …at training camp they said you would be completely different after the Race…and well…I can see one major change…and that is that I loveee speaking to the church! Which is funny because I used to be the kid who would shake in front of my English class when I had to give a report, but God truly knows me better than I do and gave me this huge passion for preaching His Word. I have been "labeled" one of the preachers on our squad/team. What an honor!! Another awesome thing that Joe told me (one of the men on my squad) is that I am a man that is deeply rooted in His Word….it is planted on my heart. And see at the beginning of this trip I felt like I was so far behind in the Word compared to everyone….we had so many people that have been to college and studied the Word…or so many people that have been to multiple mission trips, but what a foolish thought haha….the spirit of comparison has been a problem in my life (just had a huge revelation on that a month ago)….and throughout this Race I have been studying up…and now….I am a man that people come to me for Scriptures…Praise God for the work He has done…and is doing in me!
But even though I have been in my element this month…I got to a point to where I wanted more…I just got to a point to where I felt so close to our Father, but yet so far away….The intimacy was not there….more so with the Holy Spirit…for I never really had a relationship with the Spirit before this trip… it has been more about Jesus and the Father….but I have been so routine with my life lately….just kinda staying in the comfort zone…not really stretching myself…not trying something really new in my walk….Now although I am a prayer warrior….my prayer life has been pretty much routine….hasn't really been….intimate with the Spirit…maybe it has been more out of flesh? Regardless my personal prayer life has been dead in the past weeks….I mean I would still fight for everyone/everything, but it hasn't been intimate with the Spirit …more so just out of duty? Honestly. a lot of this is just coming out as I type….revelations I am having at the moment…so Praise God.
So where do I go from here? Well…it is kinda like how our Father has transformed me into a preacher/speaker….just go out and practice…..just go out and seek the Spirit …seek out the relationship with the Holy Spirit….pray/fast with fire….not out of duty, but out of passion…and I am a passionate man for the Lord….but I have to do something new in my walk….need to step deeper in my prayer life…fasting….for prayer is my suit ….it is my armor…my passion ….just have been in a comfort zone with it for to long…been wanting to see all these things happen, but my prayer life hasn't been moving…we have a living/moving God so I should always press on and move forward…
We have to be people of God who continues to step out in faith…steps out of our comfort zones and push ourselves….its not easy…but it is so worth it….and again I just thank God so much for this month….allowing me to be apart of such a Spirit filled church…surrounded by an amazing team…amazing family/friends….there is power in speaking life to each other….cause like I told my brother Joe a few days ago when He told me I was a man who is deeply rooted in the Word of God…..those words meant the world to me and will always be carried with me….
Proverbs 27:17 "As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another."
