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This blog is much like the last blog "Changed Forever" .. for it'll be about my last week at training camp. Just going to go a lot deeper for that blog we had to write in ten minutes hahaha I mean come on now!? I changed my life in a week! How can I write about that in ten minutes haha ! So hmm where do we begin guys? Well going in to training camp I knew it was going to be different…. but I did not know really what to expect… just threw my pack on my back and fly to Atlanta trusting in AIM and our Father!
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For those who personally know me.. they know one of the biggest things going into this trip that I needed to get over was my eating habits… I am the guy who had to get a different meal or my own plate just cause I was so picky! And that cannot be on the mission field, and I knew this so I was in pray HUGELY about this so our Father could help me overcome this! Well, the frist thing we ate on sunday night was just a simple frito pie salad so it was no biggie! Hahaha, but the following morning I was in for a big change!! We had fish soup… and it had to fish in it! Eye balls and all! I drank the WHOLE THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was so big for me!! I can honestly say I ate everything that was given to me and sometimes I ate more just so the cook did not have to store it up for it is very disrespectful not to finish ALL the food that was made for us!
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The next thing that was SO huge for me was the community and love that I got from my squad! I come from a home that did not really express these things. So the feeling of belonging was never really there for me. I can say that I do come from an amazing church, but you only walk with your church in so much. And ohhhhhhh how that feeling of belonging changed! I was surronded by CRAZY people! And thats so good cause I am a man who lives my faith out different. I am a rare breed and I was surrrrrrrronded by the same type of crazyness! And I cannot express enough how great it feels to finally be in a family of people who are as passionate for the Lord and live it out the same way I do! It was so easy to tell them my past for I knew they would be there for me with open arms and they were! They prayed through things with me…put their hands on me in the time of brokeness! Our Father's love was all over me…is all over me…all over my team and I felt it so much! I am so blessed to be apart of the World Race family!
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To be in the body… you need to be moving…for we serve a moving God…. so in that you have to be growing… making yourself better…putting yourself more in Christ! So that for me meant I had to cut so many cords in my life and just let them go. Although I already knew I needed to do this, and heard many sermons about this it just really hit me this time. And well here we go. I cut the cords of fear of man… meaning.. I no longer care what my brother or dad think of my decisions and no longer will try to live up to their expectations… and will no longer wrap myself in brokeness for them for I cannot save them . Only our Father can and its in His timing! Also…. just the fact that my sister and mom are protected by Jesus and just hearing that meant so much to me for I prayed for them so much! Another cord I cut was letting half of myself be unholy… for when things in my house was bad (fighting…stress..ect) I would not turn to God for prayer rather try to fix things myself which that lead to bad thoughts ( a lot of times lustful thoughts) just cause of the fact that was a huge part of my past. I had a lot of bad relationships with girls and lust was a big part of it. So, this past week was huge for me… I declared … I am a saint…. I am a man of God and I belong to Him… I no longer fear the thoughts of man… I no longer will wrap myself in my family's problems and just leave it to God…. I will no longer turn my shoulder from God and I will truly come to Him for everything so I can be whole again as I was meant to be in the first place, so now I will say no to all those lustful thoughts and I will say YESSSSSSS to Jesus! Come down Jesus! Reign in me!
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After cutting all those cords and declaring who I really am. That following day was the day that changed my life forever. We were in worship and just praying for the Holy Spirit to come down and fill us up… for God to give us everything He planned for us! Well… I was just standing there… singing…. thanking the Father for all He has done for me and through me…. then I had someone pray over me by just touching my back… lasted only a few seconds….. felt nothing…. then some time went by and he came back and prayed over me…. and ahahah WOW my WHOLE body was VIBRATING … my skin to my flesh was bursting… it felt like the Holy Spirit was going to explode through my skin! Then all of the sudden my hand raised by itself! It was like our Father was pulling my hand to Heaven!!! THEN all of the sudden I started laughing uncontrollably and that lasted a good thirty minutes!
Then when I could finally open my eyes and catch my breathe I looked around and all my crazy brothers and sisters were jumping and singing like crazy! It was the best night of my life and I will NEVER BE THE SAME!!!
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Last big thing was getting put in my actual team for the Worlds Race team. We are a team of seven and we call ourselves Team Tharros (greek for courage). Along with me another man and five women! And OHHH my team is amazzzzzzing! We are so strong! We are ALL leaders… and you would think that we would clash cause we all have our own ideas, but NO we click so well and we follow our leader so well! And I know for a fact that we are going to FARTHER than any other squad as ever gone! We are going to see some amazing things, but thats not really the point its all for His Kingdom and how He works through us to bring people to Him. Also its about finding ourselves in the Kingdom and growing in our walk! Ministry is an amazing thing, but we all need to grow as well and I know with my team this next year I will again be able to say "changed forever". I love my team so much! I cannot wait to serve them and with them for the next year and to be their brother! WAHOOO!!
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So in closing… I always and this… I had the fact that I loved Him… He loved me… I knew His story and His word…. and how He saved me.. but now I have that… I have His Spirit inside of me… I have evidence of Him in me…. I have a story to tell my church…my family… my team… the Nations. I thank our Father for really changing me in just a week. I thank Him for the love of the AIM staff and I thank Him for my squad/team for embracing me with so much love! I am SO BLESSED and HONORED to be around such CRAZY people! For I am also crazy! Crazy for our Father!!!!!!!!!!
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