Processing has been tough for me these last few weeks. I've been on the go travelling. I constantly make myself busy. In a way, I'm refusing to process. It's too much to unpack. You know, I'm still living out of a pack. As I type this, I'm sitting on my sleeping pad, which has been my bed for the past 6 weeks. Sad right? I still wear the same clothes with my one "nice" shirt to wear for important events. I am physically resisting change, even though I have started to use mouth wash, which is a HUGE deal for me.
You see, my head can't wrap around the fact that I've been around the world. It just doesn't make sense! I constantly have to remind myself that it wasn't a dream. The people I met, the food I ate, the things I saw, they EXIST. Their lives are still happening simultaneously with mine.
It's also hard to process when no one around you has any idea of what you went though. It kills every time someone asks me how that little mission trip was. Uhhh. It was SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT!! But I can't blame them. They don't know. Patience and grace.
So what's next for me? Find out: http://www.tumblr.com/blog/worthyofacrown
Much love,
Tommy
