I have been back in the great US of A for just over two weeks now.
I have driven 1300 miles in that time–just under 100 miles a day…
But I haven’t taken any epic road trips…just constantly on the move.
…
Which is the basic indicator of how much resting, processing, and simply being I have done.
…
None.
…
I met two of my closest girlfriends yesterday for lunch.
Their word to describe me right now?
Detached.
…
Which is something I am not normally.
I have lived an entire year being raw, exposed, vulnerable.
Then I got home and started running from everything.
But more than anything?
Running from my Papa.
I see Him everywhere.
I hear Him in my dreams every night.
I feel a cloak of grace and righteousness clothing me.
But still.
Fear of man and self-deification have ruled in my life since landing in LA fifteen days ago.
Now?
He is calling me so softly but forcefully.
And I am slowly beginning to turn to look at Him.
Evidenced in that I actually sat down and wrote for the first time in almost a month.
…
When He and I are restored in the throes of intimacy, know that I will continue to blog here of the stories, the people, my heart from this year and where the Lord is taking me in the next season.
I have driven 1300 miles in that time–just under 100 miles a day…
But I haven’t taken any epic road trips…just constantly on the move.
…
Which is the basic indicator of how much resting, processing, and simply being I have done.
…
None.
…
I met two of my closest girlfriends yesterday for lunch.
Their word to describe me right now?
Detached.
…
Which is something I am not normally.
I have lived an entire year being raw, exposed, vulnerable.
Then I got home and started running from everything.
But more than anything?
Running from my Papa.
I see Him everywhere.
I hear Him in my dreams every night.
I feel a cloak of grace and righteousness clothing me.
But still.
Fear of man and self-deification have ruled in my life since landing in LA fifteen days ago.
Now?
He is calling me so softly but forcefully.
And I am slowly beginning to turn to look at Him.
Evidenced in that I actually sat down and wrote for the first time in almost a month.
…
When He and I are restored in the throes of intimacy, know that I will continue to blog here of the stories, the people, my heart from this year and where the Lord is taking me in the next season.
