God has been challenging my identity. I have come to find that I am not who I was
as I entered this journey three months ago. His love has set me free. He has
set me apart, and is calling me into deeper intimacy with Him.  

 
I came into the Race with one expectation, abandon everything.  I only thought I knew what that looked like. You expect to abandon comforts, a soft bed,
warm showers, friends, family, and tasty foods. But it is in these past three months that God has challenged me to step
outside everything I have known, and fall into who He really is. 
 
He has called me to a life of total abandonment, in every
sense of the word. And as I began the
journey on the Race I felt Him say,” I challenge you to surrender all your
thoughts on me, your identity, and your passions. For this is no longer about
you.”
 
 He gave me new
eyes. I now know a new God, the real
Him. The real God that loves the street
children in Honduras, the One who walks alongside the abandoned women in the
small mountain communities of Peru, the same God that saves babies from burning
houses in the Dominican, and the God that carries you through the depths of the
Amazon jungle at midnight. 
 
My identity no longer lies in who I think I am, or in what
people have spoken over me. But now it
rests in the one who matters, My Creator. With this new identity comes a different role, a pruned calling, and a
new mantle. He has given me a new coat.
 
I was sitting in my last night of ministry in Peru, when I
heard it. “It,” was the voice of God and He was moving.  He whispered, “Be willing.” 
 

It wasn’t until a few days later I was sitting at lunch when
I was asked to step up as a squad leader. It took me by total surprise to say the least. I feel honored, and I am humbled by the
request to step up as a new leader. Our
current lovely squad leaders (who are World Race alumni) will be making their
way back to the states at the end of this month to begin the next chapter of
their lives, and as they do they have chosen three of us to take over their
roles.

 Squad leaders carry
such a unique role on the Race. Everything looks different. Our ministry now becomes the squad. The three of us have come together to form
our own team, and we will no longer work with one specific ministry throughout
each month. We will now travel among the
seven teams that are on the squad, and encourage and empower them and their
team leaders.
 
 Our God is so mighty
and wondrous.  God has been teaching me
so much and revealing so many things to me. He has called me to a life of sacrifice
and being set apart. He is consuming me
with new passions. Passions to see this
generation seek the Kingdom. Passion to
empower, walk beside, brings hope, see healing, set a fire, speak life, stir
passion, guide, encourage, and intercede. 
 

                                        

                                        Team Ru’ach: Vanessa O’Neal, Jeremiah Jackson, and Me!
 
 

 

The Father has given me a new coat and a new role. He is constantly shaping my identity. It’s a new season, and it is about digging
deeper into something so much bigger then we can see.