Come on Somebody!!!

My entire life I have always let people influence the way I think. 
 
I will admit it; I am a people pleaser!
 
I remember when I was younger, back when a Super Nintendo was the stuff legends are made of, I let my brother talk me out of buying “Earthworm Jim” and into the game he wanted “MotoGX” (or something like that).  My brother did not have to try hard; we were kids and he was/is one of my heroes.  Now this particular example is small on the scheme of things, but this principle is something that I have carried into life.  I love for people to be happy.  I love to be happy also, but if I can make someone’s day then my day is made.

 
This is where I am going!
 
The few weeks I have been home have been hard, not to the point I am crying everyday but they have been difficult.  I have not been whom The Race has helped me discover because that person is different.  People will not understand that person.  Instead, I have ignored conversations about the last eleven months of my life and I have opted instead to blame it on the lack of understanding!
 
Here is the thing…
 
That IS NOT who I am.
 
I want to let you in on a secret.  We are all part of the story!  Whether you like it or not, you have bought into my story by reading what I am writing.  And I apologize if I have made you feel any other way and I thank you for taking the time to invest in my life!
 
So where do we go from here?
 
I have taken the last couple days of my life to listen and soak in the Presence (of God)!  I wrote a song in the Helser’s prayer gazebo, which I hope I get the chance to share with you guys.  Some crazy things have happened!  I started listening to those voices we all have in our heads (call me crazy). 
 
And this is why I have picked up writing today!  I need your help…  I have been accepted to attend G42 Leadership Academy in Spain for the fall and winter seasons.  I am passionately following where I feel I am being called and into the community that I am choosing.  With your help, I will be boarding a plane to Spain in the upcoming week. 

 
You may be asking, “Why?”
 
Here it is, short and simple.  I have been thinking this through the last couple days and I was having a talk with my mom yesterday about Elijah and Elisha.  Elisha did not watch the chariot as Elijah was pulled into Heaven, he had his eyes locked on his mentor.  The school in Spain is run by a man on FIRE, his name Andrew Shearman.  You should iTunes him; we pretty much memorized his sermon, “Hell No”.  The man is so intimately passionate about Jesus and operating as sons and daughters, while building intimacy with the Lord.  So why?; I want that!!!  I want to never be lacking of the new wine and so passionate in investing in people no matter where my geographical location!  This is where G42 comes in; it is community, mentorship and developing my passions, dreams and desires to be carried out in my lifetime. 
 
You can check it out, http://www.g42leadershipacademy.org/.
 
This is something that I want!
 
The last season of my life I spent most of my time pouring out, it was where I was and I am grateful for it.  I am ready to be a part of a community that pours in, while challenging me to continue to pour out.  It has to be equivalent. 
 
I am not running away!  This is my fear.  I told you I am a people pleaser.  I do not want you to think that I am leaving home, because the truth is it is hard to leave.  You guys are my family and friends and part of me is broken thinking that I would be leaving you guys again.  But, I want you to be invited into this new season even more then the last.  I will be stable and grounded with great Internet and I hear Spain is beautiful this time of year, take a vacation!
 
Here is how you can help:
 
I need prayers; this is a quick turn around.  You guys are my prayer warriors!
 
Let’s be really blunt, I need money!
 
The school cost is $6000, which covers housing, community meals, utilities, coursework, textbooks, teaching from internationally reknown leaders and disciplers, and some practicum ministry costs.
 
Your investment would be in me though.  The race gave me some really big dreams involving child labor, pre-sex trafficking and investing in people.  So, your money is ultimately building a deeper foundation to see some of these dreams realized.

 
I am also in need of a plane ticket.  I have some Delta skymiles, which may be a possibility if I receive enough extra.  I have about 12,000 and am looking at flights that I would need 60,000.
 
If you would like to invest in me, you can go to www.g42leadershipacademy.org/donate
 

There is an urgency, but comfort about the whole thing.  I was talking to a friend and person that I look up to today and he told me, “God equips the unequipped for what He has in store!” 
 
Call or send me your questions!  I am me…  I am willing to talk and tell you anything you may want to know…

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