It’s been hard finding words to put to what I have felt as
of late; feelings of inexpressible joy and feelings of stepping into shoes that
are a couple sizes too big (props to Banko on that one). However, with a new season comes a
bigger sense of urgency to truly seek out and depend on the Lord for questions
and answers.
Most of you don’t even know what I am talking about, seasons,
shoes, and this eluding sucker called inexpressible joy.
I have been called into squad leading, so now instead of 5
other people there are 49 other people that seek you out for questions,
guidance and growth. Seems a
little overwhelming when you write it down, but it is good and I will tell you why!
My biggest prayer of this trip has been seeking out being
fully dependant on the Lord and not because that is what I choose to do, but
because I feel the urgency and the need to fall face down undignified in
reverence of a King above all other kings.
Welcome to a new season.
I was able to get some quiet time the other day that really
rocked my mindset on my attitude and the person I want to be. Before you go any further read 1 Samuel
14.
This is my revelation that I have been diving into, “Perhaps
the Lord will act on our behalf!”
Thailand has been awesome, it has been a whirlwind of things
happening with B-Squad and at times the ministry seems little and not what you
expect ministry looks like. But my
battle cry has been, I am leaning into the Spirit and Perhaps the Lord will act
on it! Sometimes words are said or
actions are taken and things don’t wind up the way you thought they would, the
reaction is different or it feels as though God doesn’t show up.
Sometimes I feel nothing like Jonathan and sometimes I feel
as though I’m ready to take on an entire encampment of Philistines
(figuratively). Here is the thing
that I am learning, sometimes we are called to be Jonathan and sometimes we are
called to be the armor bearer.
In Thailand, they do this thing called the Wai! It is a bow of the head with a prayer
like hand motion, similar to the American handshake or informally the high
five. This is a sign of respect or
reverence and the higher up you place your hands the more respect that is given
to the receiving individual.
Fitting because stepping into this new authority that I have been called
into I feel as though I am not to receive these Wais at all but instead I want
to give them to B-Squad and to the people that I meet and serve daily and I
want them to be received with the utmost confidence in what they mean.
I am a leader, God has spoken that over me; but I think that
I am just as much an armor bearer.
In 1 Samuel 14:7 Jonathan’s young armor bearer looks to him with these
words, “Do all that you have in mind, Go ahead; I am with you heart and soul.”
There is a lot of brokenness happening right now amongst the
B-Squad and I am overjoyed because of it.
Yea, it sucks; but I believe that brokenness brings about dreams of
righteousness and hope in something greater. I pray everyday to be broken for something that I will never
back down from or stop until I see change and not because of me but because the
only thing capable of changing the issue is HOPE and a willingness to fight for
something that seems impossible.
Check out the27project at http://speaktothehope.blogspot.com
and http://thekingdomstorylives.com. These are the people I get to do life
with! These are the dreams
that are going to change the world.
Help support them and be a tool of change to turn God sized dreams into
realities!
But here is my hope and dreams for B-Squad… It’s real simple
that each racer be filled with dreams that are only possible through faith in a
BIG God. And my confidence is that
I will be there walking right beside heart and soul striving to push people
into bigger dreams and not letting the notion of impossibility be an option.
It’s funny hearing people talk about how this changes
ministry. I think it’s called me
into a deeper level of ministry. I
still struggle to communicate with kids, who smile so much that they can’t even
mock seriousness, I get mauled by MuyThai moves and breakdancing lessons, I get
to be a kid and I still get to hear how ministries are being planted all around
the world and how God is showing up in a country that bows down to idols and
foolishness.
I still hold strong to the battle being won. We are just lucky enough to get to be armor
bearers in a small piece of a BIGGER story.
Pray for B-Squad, Kayla, Ryan and myself as we continue to
step into this new seasons, teams, countries and pray that dreams are
ignited. Perhaps God is going to
do something unfathomable through these people and the people we come in contact
with!
What are your dreams?
How are you going about changing them to reality? DREAM BIG!
