Wow! Today was the first day of training camp and it was great. Worshiping God with 200 other people, all here with the purpose of surrendering over the next year of our lives to our amazing Father. We were confronted with 4 questions all centering around us releasing our expectations for the trip, and giving it over to God. The four specific questions were:
1) Are you willing to release your expectations about ourselves relating to this mission trip?
2) Are you willing to release your expectations about our countries and the people in them?
3) Are you willing to release your expectations about our team while we are on this mission trip?
4) Are you willing to release your expectations about how God will work on this mission trip?
These seem like four easy questions that can all be answered yes, but it wasn’t that simple for me. I had expectations about every one of these thing. At the root of it, I was taking this trip away from God and simply following him in it, instead creating this box that everyone and everything including God had a place in. This is so absorb. The arrogance that I came here with is appalling. It sickens me that I am so broken that I in my “infinite wisdom� I would actually design a trip for God to fall into.
God has confronted me, and He has won. This is no longer my trip. It is in the hands of our Father and I am honored that God would allow me to be a servant for His kingdom and a light for his creation. Wow!
