Mark 8:34-35
“If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it”.
This verse is beginning to make sense to me. If we want to save our lives we must go after God with everything we have. We must lay our lives down for the sake of the gospel, because when we do that is when we truely become alive. Denying myself means I no longer have my standard of living to cling to, I am not comfortable, and I have given up everything for this year to follow Christ and be his hands and feet. I am not going to lie and say that these last 5 months have not been hard, they have, but they have been so worth it. God has shown me more of who I am in 5 months than in my whole life. The enemy knows where God is taking me and he is doing everything in his power to stop it. I have been sick for about 6 weeks now, just not feeling right but I will continue to push through. I am tired, I’m weak but when I am weak God is strong! What a better time for God to come through, because I cant do it on my own, without him I am nothing but with him I can do all things! I am denying myself for God and for the gospel, and what a rich time it has been with the Lord. By denying myself I am saving my life. I am noticing what matters in life. I am learning life lessons to truely depend of God and God alone!
