Well, I am happy to say that one month later I realize what the Lord was doing in my brokenness. He took away my patience, joy and abilitiy to love because I had created my identity around them. I came to a place where I was broken. I had prayed that I wanted all he had for me, but I didn’t consider that would entail being broken down to become completly dependent on him. Once everything was gone I realized that the Lord was birthing something new in me. While in Ireland we had all night prayer; we were signed up for 2 hour increments. My prayer time was 2:00-4:00 but instead of just praying for my time I ended up praying from 12:00-5:30, it was amazing. The Lord kept putting people and situations on my heart to pray for. Later on that week our teams went to Dublin to do street ministry and I felt the Lord say pray for them as they are ministering. At first I said no because that was not the ministry I came for but I immediately knew that was the wrong answer. So I prayed and began to notice that the Lord was birthing a new gift in me, the gift of intercession. If the Lord wouldn’t have taken everything away I would not have been open to recieving a new gift. Since that time the Lord has given back my old gifts and now I have one more as well. Also, I have learned to only place my identity in the Lord. Even though giftings are of him, I will not create my identity in them. Wow, God is good! It reminds me of a song my friends wrote in college; When your down to nothing, God is up to something 🙂 So true. Be Blessed!!
