I want to not know.
Not care.
Not think about what Sarah from Nepal would do if she saw an automated hand towel dispenser.
Not think about the dying woman I held in my arms in Tanzania while her 10 yr old daughter was feet away. Not get angry at the fact that SHE WAS DYING ON A HOSPITAL FLOOR.
Except I do.
I crave cute clothes.
More than anything right now.
But their price tags?
uuggghh
A $20 shirt!?! that could feed, school & provide medical treatment for a child for a month.
I want to not care about ignoring the whisper, ‘there’s more, and you know it’
Except I do.
Because this love,
it wrecked me.
This grace,
it gave me freedom.
And now that I know, I am responsible.
I will stand before God and he will ask me,
What did you do with all I gave you?
It could have been me you know.
I could have been born to a family so desperate for money they sold me to a brothel.
But I was born into an amazing family. Raised with love. Given a future.
My heart,
it hurts. Like, physically hurts.
For the children being sold into slavery.
For the teens, & the adults.
Who are beat, starved, abused, given drugs, and forced into sex 9-10 times a day with people they don’t know.
For the men & woman who run brothels.
For those that buy the children.
My heart hurts.
I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING.
It is not okay with me that RIGHT NOW as I type this there are children being sold, trafficked, locked in cages, starved, drugged up & beat up to have sex.
Because to me, a 6 year old should be worried about learning how to ride a bicycle, not about how many men they will have to serve tonight.
I’m going to do something about it.
Long Term Goal: Rescuing woman from red light district of Mumbai, India.
Specifically: getting all the children in school & providing jobs for the woman.
Dude, I have no idea how to do that.
Short term: going back to the States to work and pay off all student loans.
(^me when I pay off all my loans!)
The last hoorah, the FINAL knotch on my belt.
From January – June 2012.
I’m in Mijas, Spain right now.
Getting my world rocked.
International teachers.
Learning entrepreneurial business skills with intense spiritual mentoring to build my life, business & ministry on.
International networking.
Developing business plans to make my dream of opening a shelter/school/business in Mumbai a REALITY.
To stay here, I have to support raise.