When I think who I am, Terin James, a few things come to mind. Christian, daughter, friend, fun-lover, and many other things that are too embarrassing to admit. But the one thing that I do not think of right away is Terin James, Missionary.
Who the heck do I think I am? Who am I thinking that I can quit my life for nearly a year and travel the world sharing the love of Jesus. What have I done to deserve this incredible opportunity? The answer is nothing. I cannot do this, in my own strength, I can do nothing. I am just as broken as any person that I may come in contact with, I sin just as much and deserve the worst just as they do. The thing that sets me apart though is Jesus.
I have been saved for three-ish years now and I cannot begin to understand the workings of God. I've grown up "doing church" but it never became real to me until I realize how desperately worthless I am. I am worthless without God because he is the reason why I do everything. He is the reason to live, to go to work, to leave my life and show as many people as I possibly can His love.
Am I scared, no I am not, truthfully I am terrified. I know that there is no way that I can do this. But there is a good thing that I don't have to, God has already taken care of everything. He has made a way, He is preparing hearts, and I just pray that He will use me to fulfill His plan here on earth.
