I think I was sobered this week realizing more what I am
leaving behind. I live such a comfortable life!
I won’t have:
Hugs from my dad
Encouraging words being spoken to me from my mom as we go on
walks
Friends who truly know me and have lived life with me
Brothers who tackle, tease, and encourage me
Kids I watch not wanting to let me go
Card games with the grandparents
Alone time
Holiday traditions
I have learned it is okay to grieve the loss of past comforts
and be sad they are gone. Even though I will not have these exact things for a
year and they can’t be replaced I will have new things that I can take joy in,
things that I would never experience otherwise. Things that will rock my world!
Like hearted women to grow with in deep relationship
People to pour my life into
Children to love on who don’t have the love of a father and
mother
Sharing with woman who have never been embraced by truth
Bringing Jesus to the sick who have never had a free life
Showing tribes that have never heard what God has done for
them
Now that is something to get pumped about!!
Part of me is also grieving the fact that when I get back
people will not be able to understand everything that I have seen or
experienced. And the way I will see the world is going to be completely
different. But I am thankful that I get to share a part of it with you and also
that I will have a more true and more real picture of the world because of the
transformation God is going to do. Yes, I will never be the same and everything
has a cost but that is what makes it worth it. God paid the grandest cost the
world has ever seen, and I am eternally grateful.
