As I was reading this chapter, I was, and still am, sitting
on the front porch of my home. I could periodically hear what sounded
like a large rock being dropped on the sidewalk and I looked to see what was going
on. My youngest sister was pulling weeds like I asked her to several
hours ago. You guys have the privilege of knowing a little bit about Leah
from yesterday’s reading. It has been tough giving her the freedom she
needs while still getting her to be active and occasionally productive.
I joined her, then realized that I was in the middle of asking God a
question. Ironic that the question I was asking was how to better
communicate with Him. I ventured back to my seat with the intentions of
returning shortly. Another one of my sisters, Emily, soon joined
Leah. It wasn’t long before they were fighting about which green thing
was a flower and which a weed. Emily soon got frustrated and bickering
ensued. I intervened and then turned on some music for them to
enjoy. Looking back down at the book, I realized I was still in the same
paragraph I left before. Talk about distraction!
Anyway, God has been teaching me patience and to not be judgmental. This
has been incredibly difficult for me. He has been teaching me in the past
few days that I need to rely on Him more. I read the Bible, pray,
journal, talk about Him, etc., but I have not been submitting myself completely
to Him with my attitude. Sometimes it’s just marking off another item on
a list and I’m no better in the end.
