Month one on the race I remember telling one of our alumni squad leaders that I felt the Lord was calling me to alumni squad lead after the race. Month four rolls around and I got a call to be a raised up squad leader. I was excited and in disbelief. I thought, “well maybe I wasn’t supposed to alumni squad lead, that this was it instead.”
So in El Salvador when the thought crossed my mind, I just brushed it off. It kept coming back up though. (Preface: I don’t recommend my rebellious/stubborn ways with the Lord.) I told the Lord, “If Ashley (our squad mentor) asks me to be an alumni squad leader for her I’ll say yes.”
Ashley came at the end of the month for debrief and you can probably guess what happened next…she asked. I immediately changed my little “deal” with the Lord and said, “Actually I’m just going to pray about it now.” As I prayed alone and with my dear sweet friend Darcy (who is actually co-leading Y-Squad with me) the Lord was doing a work in my heart. Changing my desires to align with His. I knew what He was asking of me. Stubbornly though I said “well if I get this route, if Darc does it with me, if this and if that.” I was making deals, which the Lord very quickly called me out on!
We were on a bus from El Salvador to Honduras, and here was what the Lord had to say to me: The Lord said, “Why isn’t my yes enough? Why do you need to get a specific route? Why do you need Darc? Do you not think I’ll provide what you need? Do you not trust me in a blind yes? Daughter don’t you desire to delight me? To serve me where I need you? To follow my call into deeper intimacy? Trust me blindly. Trust me regardless of what others are doing. Trust me deeply that I have a plan and will for your life. I love you deeply and intimately. Let’s let it grow. Let’s dance in the garden and water the soil. Come dance with me in this new season.” With that I knew, I knew I must say yes and trust this new season with the Lord.
As almost three months have passed since I said yes, applied, interviewed and was accepted into the role officially, I can say that the Lord has truly changed my heart to align with His. I am excited for this next season! I am excited for Y-Squad! I find myself praying over them often and my heart is filled with joy for the journey they have begun with the Lord. I feel humbled and blessed to get to be a part of it.
Oh how the Lord delights in delighting His children. Those things I asked of the Lord as bargaining items for me to say yes…well He has since provided each of them. How truly loved I feel by Him!
Alumni Squad Leading :: What does this mean exactly? It means that I will be leading a new squad (Y-Squad) with one of my dearest friends (Darcy) for five months on the field. Our ministry will be the incredible individuals on the squad first, and the ministries we will serve in each country as a close second. We will get to lead, guide, encourage, disciple and grow with this new squad! All the while utilizing the experience we have gained this past year.
As I venture into this next season of my life I ask you to prayerfully consider supporting me spiritually and financially!
Message me for more details if you are interested 🙂
