I have been meaning to get around to this…
I want to share my journey and life while on the World Race with everyone, but sometimes it’s hard.
What do I even say when my brain feels like a bouncy ball is bouncing within it. I feel like my mind is working overtime already, and I am just trying to refill.
The beginning of this month started with some exciting, but challenging changes for K-Squad. There were team changes. Team changes come with the harsh reality that you won’t be with most of the same people you were with for the last four months. Teams changes also meant leadership changes, bringing in new team leaders and raising up new squad leaders, to fill the place of alumni squad leaders, as they transition home at the end of the month.
Halfway through month four, I was invited into the role of a raised up squad leader. This was and still is a very humbling invitation for me. I didn’t expect it or see it coming. The Father confirmed this invitation, as I sat and prayed whether I would say yes or no. With my yes, He has since invited me continuously into a season of unknown growth, trust and experiences with Him.
During the next two-ish weeks prior to be being able to tell anyone or the squad I was faced with a lot of attacks from the enemy. Over and over again, he was telling me I wasn’t good enough, I would fail, I wasn’t qualified, on and on with lies. I knew they were lies and time and time again, I rebuked them. I trust the Father, even when it is hard. I was scared, and the Father reminded me to seek refuge in Him and His truths.
At debrief, they announced Darcy, Joni and myself to the squad and the response of my friends and teammates brought me a reassuring comfort in the will of the Father. Person after person affirmed me in this role, and I know that was the Father affirming me and loving me so well. I love my squad so much, and I am honored to serve them in this new role.
Little background: a raised-up squad leader takes over for/fills the roles of the alumni squad leaders (individuals that have done the race and go back out onto the field to serve the squad). This month has been all about shadowing and training to learn how to best serve the squad the rest of the race. Some responsibilities of the raised-up squad leaders are praying over the ministry placements for each month and placing teams, checking-in with teams, praying over the squad, building relationships, relaying how things are on the field to our squad mentor back in the states. The gist of it is that as a raised-up squad leader our ministry focus changes from the ministries we serve each month to the people on our squad. This change in focus hooked me. While we will still be with a team each month and serve with them in their ministry, our main focus is the squad and the people on it. Anyone who knows me knows, I love people, and I love walking through life with people. This role allows me to live out the ministry I love; relationships and doing life with people who hold a special place in my heart!
(Thank you K-Squad for welcoming me into this season with open arms and loving hearts. I desire to lead with a servant heart and passion for you all, while we get to serve alongside each other in ministry and life. I love you all!)
With us doing a lot of go-go-go, I have had to revisit with the Father about how to refill my tanks (spiritually, physically, mentally). I have found that laughter is a filler. Scripture and truth is a filler. Silence with the Lord is a filler. Slowing down and staying present is a filler. Taking care of my body and eating better is a filler.
The lies and attacks of the enemy are still occasional. However, I know the protection and armor of God are real, and that they cover me. He has been so gentle and kind to me. I love my Father and am so thankful for the protection He shows me daily.
My co-squad leaders are the very best! Darcy is this wise, calming, amazing leader of a lady with a powerful set of words that gently speak truth over you! Joni is this sassy lover of the Lord who sees things from all perspectives and brings us back to focus when we get distracted. Together we love our squad more than words, we seek truth and to best honor this ministry. We always manage to have a lot of fun along the way, too. These ladies have taught me a lot and I love them very much.
The alumni squad leaders, Courtney and Jami, are two wise individuals. They are prayer warriors over this squad. They have sought relationships intentionally and care deeply for each of us, on K-Squad. I love the joy they carry and their trust in the Father. I am very thankful for you two and so blessed by our friendships.
This month my head has felt like a bouncy ball is inside of it. Change is everywhere! I find myself constantly with the Father seeking refuge and supernatural rest. I love when He gives me little places just for the two of us and when He pours into me.
As I continue in this transition please join me in praying over my new team of co-squad leaders, our squad as a whole and for me personally. We feel and know your prayers are real and working. Thank you for following and being a part of my journey with the Lord.
love you all so much!
