Last night during worship, I was having a hard time at first. I don’t know if it was nerves, exhaustion, what. But I kept pressing in- I didn’t stop praying until I felt the Holy Spirit. As soon as I did, I had this desire well up in me to present the Lord with a sacrifice. I knew instantly, I need to sacrifice the World Race, this next year, my expectations. I fully handed it to Jesus and I told Him “Do whatever you want with me, in me and through me. I’m ready for all of it. I’m ready for the growth, the change, the discomfort, the vulnerability and the pain. My spirit is ready”.
Instantly, I realized the magnitude of what I had just asked for. That was a really dangerous request. This next year is going to be hard enough as it is, and now I’m basically just asking for more. Every moment of every day, I want to be aware of what I can do to serve others on my team and in ministry. Preferring others and stepping out of my comfort zone- these are two personal goals. I really do want God to be able to do everything in me this year, no matter the cost. So ready. So willing.
Now, I am just going to trust Him. As a dear friends father told me two days ago, trusting the Lord is key to this process. When the going gets rough and I don’t think I can handle another moment, I’m going to remember to trust Him. He knows exactly what He is doing- He will not give me more than I can handle, and He has all of this in His hands.
I can’t wait to see what this year holds.
