I remembered today that a few weeks ago I prayed for something hard. Don’t get me wrong I knew exactly what I was asking for when I did it because I remember cringing as the words spilled out of my mouth. I asked God to give me trust and patience. Not a big deal right? Except when we pray, God shows up. So this week as I have been struggling with trusting in fundraising and being patient in Gods timing, I remember the prayer I hesitantly prayed. God is definitely not disappointing me. I have experienced several situations that I have to trust God in and continue to do so. God is constantly teaching me and helping me grow to be more like him, so when I willingly ask to learn a new lesson, God doesn’t hesitate. When I think about it, do I wish I had prayed for something easier? Yeah. But I believe with all my heart that this is a lesson I need to learn. Also I believe that God shows up in big ways, especially when we are completely at the end of ourselves. Trusting in God and having patience in his timing is hard. Sometimes I think about how much easier it would be if I gave up, Just stopped fundraising, Just decided that the life I’m living is good enough, that I’m content living my life the way I always have. But then I think where is the fun in that? Where is the adventure? But also, if I did that, I wouldn’t be declaring faith in God. I would be communicating to everyone I know that God isn’t big enough for me and that I don’t believe He is sovereign. And friend’s that is not at all the case. So I continue to trust. Because no matter the outcome, I believe in the Lord with all my heart, I believe He is capable of providing and I believe he is sovereign and his timing is perfect. The hard lessons are worth it if I get to boldly proclaim my faith in Christ.
