I’m getting used to life on the race. It’s something that I thought I would probably never get used to. But the things I once considered “roughing it” don’t even phase me anymore.
I actually like taking bucket showers now. Squaty potties aren’t even a problem for me anymore. Even after a week of doing insanity!
Last night I killed a cockroach, 5 other huge beetles, and started to make friends with the mouse that was crawling along the wall next to me while in the bathroom.
my idea of “roughing it” has been completely shattered when I have seen how people live in third world countries. I have quickly seen that “roughing it” would actually seem like a luxury to some people. And that right there is heart breaking.
My eyes have seen so many things that it is hard to even explain over these past 5 months. But I also see Gods hand in it as well.
Walking through streets with trash plies everywhere. Homeless children walking up to you asking for food right after you walk out of the grocery store with snacks that you said you “needed to buy” 20 minutes before. But all of a sudden those snacks I said I needed to buy no longer look appetizing. Especially when I’m looking into the eyes of a 6 year old with tangled hair and ripped up clothes with a 8 month old hanging on her back.
Oh God why? These little children need their mother! Not walking along these dirty streets with no shoes on asking for money.
I can just pray for them and ask the Lord to protect them. I can tell them that Jesus loves them even though they don’t know any English at all. But trust that the Lord will convey my message to them.
My heart might be breaking in so many different ways I didn’t know was possible. But I can also tell my heart is growing in ways that I never knew was possible too.
My God is greater than any poverty that I see, no matter how many kids stories I hear about who don’t have parents to care for them, no matter what, God will always be good.
I am just glad that I get to share Jesus with these people and show them that no matter how much money, or how little money they have God still loves them. And their treasure will be far greater in heaven!
So I might be “roughing it” to a lot of the worlds eyes. But I no longer see it that way and feel blessed to be living this way.
