So I’m not sure if you’ve heard, but I’m going back to Ecuador!! For Jesus this time!! Also I leave in four weeks for 11 months instead of 9 now, and my mind is racing every second with things I need to do and people I need to see before I leave. My heart is on overdrive as it tries to catch up with the changes and transitions, preparing for three months in South America instead of Southeast Asia, and knowing that God has something beautiful in store for us in Ecuador instead of Malaysia. I wish I just knew how to communicate the millions of things I’ve been feeling, but the greatest thing I’ve learned over the past month is that nothing is in our hands, and we can thank God for that. If it were up to me I would be living in Africa probably alone and probably depressed by now. But God is good and he’s preparing my heart for long term missions in a healthy way so that my future in ministry can be fruitful and glorifying to him!
Being patient is hard, and at times (most of the time) it can be frustrating. For nearly a year I’ve been praying for Malaysia and the work God has for us there, but this whole time God knew we would end up in Ecuador instead. He told me to join this squad specifically for Malaysia and let me tell you, it was more than confusing to understand this transition. But after speaking to some long term organizations that I feel so much peace about, Southeast Asia is starting to feel like home. Even though I’m not going to Southeast Asia on my world race, God used Malaysia to pull my heart closer towards that area of the world, and now I know I’ll soon be calling it home. But I’m just not suppose to be there yet. I’m not going there this next year. And God has a reason for that. I’m learning to be patient in His timing and trusting in His decisions, because this world is hurting, and my selfish desires to visit or serve in a certain country have no business being apart of the body of Christ. And I will not let my own desires to be in Asia now cripple the ministry God has for me elsewhere.
Lord may I never let pride be the ruler of the way I serve you. I understand that your children are in need everywhere, love is universal and not just needed in the most unreached or unvisited. God please open my heart to Ecuador in a way I didn’t see last time, and let these three months in South America be a time of humility, where I learn to serve you wherever I’m called. It’s not up to me, and I couldn’t be more grateful for that.
