Today, wow, I thought today was going to be easy. Last night I finished packing , I was done being stressed out and could finally relax before leaving on The World Race. Boy, I was wrong,
I lost my best friend today, he came into my life the same week that I got pregnant, cuddled me through out my pregnancy, and kept me going after giving my son to his new family. He watched me move around, he was there from my really high, highs and really low, lows.
I just finished packing up my car with everything that I will be taking on my adventure. I had both dogs running in and out of the house with me without any problem, except for Tucker, he knew I was leaving, he would never go to far away from my car. He was not going to let me leave without him.
Tucker loved to watch movies and snuggle with me.
I ran into the house to leave a note for the people who would be dog sitting for me. In the middle of the note, I hear the worst sound I have ever heard, I head Tucker screaming and wailing in pain, I ran outside to find him in the middle of the road. (I live off of a state highway where the speed limit is 55). He is still alive, and trying to drag himself out of the middle of the street. He is dragging him self all the way to the drive way (about 50 feet). I am panicking so unsure as what to do. The woman that hits him pulls into the driveway as we both are panicking and crying, I get Tucker in the backseat of my car and Sherry gets into my passenger seat and we head to the Veterinarian right down the street. We sat together in the waiting room, waiting for his x-rays to come back and Tucker to be stabilized. Hearing him cry in pain as they would have to move him. Once the x rays came back, we found out how bad his injuries were, a pretty badly fractured spine, with two back legs that were unresponsive. I knew from the beginning that he wouldn’t make it out of this, I had to put him to sleep. Sherry and I cried the entire time we spent together. Out of the worst case scenario, God gave me a strong woman to be by my side, to share stories from our life, our pain of loosing dogs by getting hit by a car, talk about adoptions, and laugh in the middle of this tragedy. This woman had noidea who I was, but she showed me so much love throughout this experience. We prayed together after I had made my decision about putting Tucker to sleep. She is an amazing woman, at the end of our time together she told me that I was like the daughter she never had and invited me to hear her speak at her church tonight.
I know that God has a plan for this pain, I just was praying and hoping that nothing was going to happen to Tucker when I was gone. God takes things pretty literal sometimes, but I am thankful that I was able to say goodbye to my guardian angel puppy one last time. My heart is broken, but in the midst of all of this, I kept hearing let go of all the baggage, everything that ties you to the past. Tucker was my crutch, what I poured my love into when I had nothing else to love.
Waking up to this was the best wakeup call
I am still unsure as to why this happened, I am completely heartbroken, and deeply saddened. I am none the less extremely thankful that God gave me tucker to be my best friend for the last three years and three months. He was the best dog I could have ever had.
Tucker he has taught me more about life, without ever having to speak a single word. He has shown me and taught me more about love, how to show it, how badly I need love and snuggles even when I don’t want anyone around. To love people no matter who they are, to go out and play that life is meant to have fun, to learn the rules, boundaries, and who is the boss..and when you learn that you have so much more freedom. Not to be afraid to tell someone if I don’t like how they are playing with me…to nip, but not bite. The most important one of all, after the accident, he still was so over joyed to see me, he still tried to follow me, to still be so loving, gentle, friendly, and happy even when he was in so much pain. He even scooted himself over to the window and sat up to enjoy his last car ride, smile included.
Tucker did more for me than I could have ever imagined. I hope I was able to give to him a fraction of what he gave to me. I hope that in the future, the next dog that chooses me is half the dog that he was. My heart is broken, but I now know that Tucker can now go on the race with me.. and I couldn’t be more excited to have him with me.
I’ll see you later, I love you.
