I am selfish.
After our first day of ministry, I was convicted of the past six months. I had been ministering out of a place of complete selfishness.
What did I get out of today?
How did I grow today through sharing Jesus?
I wasn’t anguishing over God’s people. I wanted to step out in faith, but only for my own benefit. Only so I could prove to my team and my leaders that I am pressing into growth, that I was finally stepping out of my comfort zone.
Right before the end of the year, our new squad leaders shared their hearts and vision for Q squad. Patrick shared specifically how we can’t wait to be fixed, or else this world won’t know Jesus. We will never be perfect. Christ already died for us. He already fulfilled the things that we lack.
We cannot have the mentality that we cannot do this or that. God can redeem us to do anything, whether it is preaching, teaching, evangelism, healing… anything!
People are depending on us. When we say we can’t do something, we are saying Christ isn’t good enough. It’s time to give up trying to be perfect.
Christ has already redeemed us.
These first few days here in Bangalore, I have seen God literally equip us as we go house to house praying for families. We are in one of the poorest and most persecuted areas of India, but the Lord makes a specific path for us each day.
The Holy Spirit is so full inside each of these houses.
God shows up like never before.
I am walking inside and instantly feeling anguished for each person that lives there. We sit and listen to our contact speak in Kannada, Hindi, Tamil or whatever language so that the family can share their story.
We met a man who told us he is having many problems within his family. His wife and her mother want nothing to do with Jesus. They are Hindi. Because of their relationship, I could definitely sense the spirit of fear in him.
As we heard his story and began to pray for him, his house, and his family’s salvation, I began to cry. I felt so deeply that God wanted to save him and welcome his family into the Kingdom. I prayed out of a deep, inner pain for his soul.
There is so much power when we minister out of a place of brokenness.
The Spirit overcomes us.
The Spirit overwhelms us.
We have to feel the same way God feels for His people.
Ask Him to rid you of your human heart because it is so full of sin.
You must adopt His.
