I give up.
I’m over your lies.
I don’t want your guarantee.
I see how you sneak around.
You maneuver your way in and out.
One day I’m satisfied.
And the next day I’m grasping for more.
I’m drowning,
Drowning in your promises.
Hoping that one day I will feel complete.
Why must our relationship continue?
You keep sucking me back in.
Or do I secretly want you?
For what?
A false hope?
A sense of belonging?
A desire to be known?
Why? Why? Why!
I give up, World.
I throw in my towel.
I surrender.
Did you not know?
There is someone else.
It seems like I forget.
You have dissapointed me enough.
Well I’m done with your games.
I will no longer come to you.
You cant have me anymore.
I am setting my eyes above.
Above your unforgiving ways.
So I can focus.
And direct my attention to a name,
The name.
Jesus Christ.
The more I draw close to Him,
The further I am from you.
You are no longer a distraction, World.
Your chains are not bound to me.
Lord, I dedicate my focus back to you.
Rid me of myself.
Rid me of this world.
I no longer hang on to its every word.
I place you higher and higher.
I give you control.
I place my security in you and you alone.
