After a frantic, last minute attempt to shove my packing cubes, tent, sleeping bag, toiletries and pillow pet into my 65-liter Osprey backpack, I was off to White, Georgia for a week at training camp.
I finally got to meet my Q squad family.
I have never known a community like this before.
I’m used to doing my own thing.
I’m used to quiet time.
I’m used to being alone.
I was pushed way out of my comfort zone.
I cried.
I was overwhelmed.
I was exhausted.
I was frustrated.
I wanted to leave.
I wanted to run home to my comfortable life.
I’m so used to fleeing when things don’t go the way I expected.
This time it’s different.
I know I’m in God’s will.
God wants me in this constant community.
He wants me to be stretched farther than I would ever allow myself back home.
I’m not going to have the chance to give up when things don’t go my way.
I’m going to learn how to believe in myself.
I’m going to learn how to surrender my trust.
I’m going to learn how to love.
I’m going to learn how to be an honest friend.
I’m going to learn how to face my fears.
I’m going to learn how to be free.
I’m going to learn who I truly am in Christ.
I hope you will follow my journey of abandonment & vulnerability.
It’s going to be a wild ride,
So buckle your seatbelts!
To my Q family,
Thank you for being such a blessing to me. I have never felt so encouraged and loved by a group of people I have just met. Each of you already holds a special place in my heart!
