The other night I was thinking and praying about some
scriptures that I had read. From
prayer to prayer, scripture to scripture and thought to thought I couldn’t get
past two particular words…persevere and rest. I thought to myself, “How could these two words go together
and why are they coming up so much? ”
So, as precise as I am at times, I wanted to read the exact
definition of these words and so that is what I did. The dictionary defines persevere as: continuing in a
course of action even if in the face of difficulty or with little or no
prospect of success and
rest as: cease work or movement in order to relax.
Then it hit me, those two words thrown into the same pot and
rearranged a bit encompass the season I’m in right now. God is calling me to dream big and walk
out those dreams. He is calling me
to learn from those who have gone before me and have a passion to pour into my
generation. God is calling me to
become more like Him in character, servanthood, self-sacrifice and
commitment. And to say the least,
this will all come soon after a lesson in rest and perseverance!
So rewind through months of prayer and fast-forward back to
now, I believe God has once more called me to leave the USA. Beginning April, I will travel to
Europe to live for 6 months at the G42 Leadership academy in Spain! (more on
G42 later!) A place where my
dreams will begin to unravel and God will set me into motion to live
passionately as a leader, with an attitude of thankfulness and worship and set
me up to live a life fully alive!
“But God, I can’t sit back and cease work when I have $7k to
raise to do this…that is not right!” That was my immediate response to the One who holds it all in His
hands. He gently moves my heart
and says, ” You’re not going to, it’s just not going to look how you think it
should!”
So here I am now, weeks before I need to purchase a plane
ticket and only a couple months away from my departure date with thankfully a start of at least $100 in
my support account, but much more to go. I have tried
to attain jobs that would bring in large amounts of money quickly, but the
doors have been closed. Yet, still
other doors have opened, just doors I can’t fathom bringing in all the
money…and so patiently as He is, God tells me, “you were not meant to live this
life alone and you’re not meant to raise a generation up alone…this means from
start to finish!!!”
Thus, I wait patiently working odd jobs, babysitting,
cleaning homes and whatever else I can get my hands on and rest in a course of
action to move forward even if I face difficulty along the way. Through all of this I learn to
PERSEVERE not knowing how it will all come together, but holding on to truth
that God is faithful and will finish the work He has started.
