11 months has come and gone faster than I can even blink…I
can’t believe I’m back home. I’m
sitting in the same spot I wrote my first blog before I knew all He would do,
only this time I sit having experienced what He has done. And even still, I wait in excitement
for what He will do and know with 100% certainty that He holds this world in
the palm of His hand.
As I spent time with the Lord today, I asked the Lord with
absolute passion to never let this fire inside of me burn out! I have been radically changed and I
want nothing other than what God has for me. I want to serve Him and live for Him alone. There is NOTHING that can satisfy me
like He does.
Though my heart blurted out to God, “Never let this fire
burn out” my mind inquired more. I
asked myself, “What does that look like? Taryn, remember that God is not a feeling.” Quickly my heart fired back, “This is your very essence now
Taryn, this is what you are made up off, what you were created to be…it’s not a
feeling, it’s what lives inside of you forever.”
I know this fire will have different shades at times. Sometimes it will be red when I’m
learning to die more and more to myself, other times it will be orange when I’m
learning to transition, sometimes it will be bright yellow when the presence of
God is saturating my every moment and still at other times it will be a
variation of all of these.
There will be different seasons, seasons where He will
manifest Himself with an intense feeling and seasons where God will seem so far
away yet He will be right with me. I have experienced so many of these and I can’t imagine life without
them now. I know that living for Jesus is not a walk in the park, but a walk on
the wild side filled with ebbs and flows. But above all this I know God is Love
and His ways are always better than mine. I know I have a fire inside of me that is burning and will NEVER die and
that is my prayer for all of us. Though all of our fires will look different, I pray that they all are
consumed by the God of this world!!!!!
” …and so WORSHIP our GOD acceptably with reverence and awe, FOR OUR GOD IS A CONSUMING FIRE.” HEB 12:28-29
P.S. Here are the new loves of my life!!!!
