…So, it’s taken 11 months to even START the process of looking away from myself, it’s taken people in my face telling me to get over myself, it’s taken time after time of being miserable and having no one to depend on but God and 5 other people. It’s taken 11 months for me to stop being me focused and start being God focused.
You see when we are God focused we can lovingly pray for the orphans and widows, we can walk into a hospital in Haiti and love a woman who just lost her baby instead of fearfully worrying about our own physical health, we can trust God will take care of us because He has brought us to that place, we can sit by a 14 year old girl whose skin is peeling off because she was raped by her uncle and contracted AIDS and love her with not a worry about our self for one moment.
We need to be emptied of our pride, our control, and our mistrust to be able to truly care for an orphan, to truly be able to clothe the poor. Andrew Shearman says, “Go to the hospital to get cured, but then get out of the bed and walk in health.” I feel as though this year has been about healing in so many areas, but now I want to walk out that healing. Yes, more healing can always come, but I want to share with others what I have experienced. I want to share with others that being a Christian does not mean you have to go to Africa and play with the orphans…it means beginning a relationship with Jesus Christ and then He will give you the desires of Him to walk into.
