The rains dropped down. The oceans crashed out from the clouds. It was the second night at the Call 2 All Conference in Tauranga, New Zealand. All 2,000 of us dashed into the gymnasium in expectation for the Lord’s presence.
The word of the Lord was upon our lips. Our group of 25 were ready to experience God in a deep way and speak, if necessary. He wanted to get intimate with EVERYONE. The night before was an experience from months and months of prep and prayer. The Tauranga leadership wanted to host this conference to not just send a shock wave throughout New Zealand but to send a wave to the rest of the world. It was focused to rally this generation to be sent out and to listen to where God is saying GO! It was all about empowerment. To accompany the event were many speakers, the Maori tribe
, over 40 nations and the world’s largest map.
SO there I was in the gym. Ready. God had spoken to me the night before about becoming more and more undignified for Him. He said that it was one of the keys for this generation to get over the people pleasing and worrying what others thought. Even what we thought about ourselves. It was David that said “I will become even more humiliated in my own eyes.� This man was part of the Maori tribe at the conference.
Undignified I became. Danced and danced. For Him…and not for others. People were being set free in their attempts to break the resistance that so holds them back from freedom. It was becoming 
undignified that it broke my own yoke. There were some spectators but God is teaching me that the multitudes are crying out for someone to be free so they can feel free to be free. They are crying out for someone to say something so they won’t remain in their silence any longer. God has called me to dance and to speak. Even in silence and stillness I hear Him directing me.
I am not dictated by feeling. Even when they prayed for the FIRE of God to come down over that place, I didn’t FEEL fire but I chose not to stand paralyzed wondering why. I chose to be used knowing God wanted me to experience Him in another way. So I moved all night. Like a chess piece. Undignified and without relent knowing that I am yet an instrument of God. A chess piece on the move with a mission. Not waiting for feeling to fill me up but believe and speak…even despite all clarity. It was that night that God used me to help break addictions from people, pray for eyes to be healed, bless generations through a pastor and his wife and talk to a girl that was so lost in her understanding of God.
God is so gracious. I am willing. There are NO walls around my God. I will prophecy. I will love. And I will hope for His Kingdom culture everywhere. For the Kingdom of God is AT HAND. We have a King now.
Thank you for your prayers. I need them.
