The presence of the Holy Spirit was thick in the room like a blanket of love and peace wrapping me up. The reservoirs of emptiness within me were being filled up with real love,peace and joy undescrible. I was once again crying tears of joy as his presence was bubbling up within me. Then I hear someone praying over my husband and I look down and this man of God on his knees praying for Joshua.
At that moment more tears of joy spilled out of me. I knew that God was pouring love into my husband and speaking forth his calling. It is such an amazing thing to see the love of your life being lifted up and stepping into all that God is passionately desiring for him. Joshua is coming alive and it is absolutely beautiful and breathtaking. It is better than all the transformation happening inside of my own heart, because I am watching the man I love become something he never really believed he could be. And, now God is lifting up his arms and I get to watch the magnificient artist paint this vivid image of LIFE ALIVE. Josh is released and free to LEAD!
Then, tears of joy began to flow again as Joshua laid his hand over my heart and began to pray for me with boldness and freedom. He began to lift me up and pray that God would heal all of the brokenness in my heart. He asked God to restore my heart to its fullness and that the places that he has caused pain and hurt would be made whole again. This is significant to me because Josh has not wanted to pray because of the messiness in his heart and instead of self condemnation he was free to be completely HIMSELF in the throne room of God’s presence, accepting God’s love just as he is. AND, that is a beautiful sight. I love my Beloved, Joshua!
