Father as I rest in you I think of my past. How sinful I was and am. What I alone chose to turn myself into. The destruction I brought to myself. I chose to be of the world all the while deceiving myself into believing I was good. I was better then most people right? Wrong for all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. Sin is sin no matter how we level or excuse it. Yet I wanted to believe that I was better. I was lukewarm straddling the fence of good and evil. Just living the life as I deemed fit. How selfish are we? Always looking out for number 1: me. If I did look out for others they were giving something back or I was receiving an award. That’s not the way we should be. He calls us to love unconditionally not conditionally. Yet we find it so hard. Even as I decided to follow God it’s a struggle not to sin. Just because I say I’m a believer doesn’t make me one. I can talk and be completely persuasive with my words but that doesn’t mean I really know. I can go to church every Sunday and look good but that doesn’t mean I am good. It’s a daily walk with Christ. It’s a choice of the heart, soul, body, and mind to act in accordance of each other to Jesus Christ. It’s to be a servant of God. Everyday is to be given to Him. Every moment he gives is to your advantage to show Jesus in your actions. It’s not an allotted time and then you can stop and do what you want. Continually you transform your mind towards the mind of God. Doesn’t mean you’ll be completely perfect without sin. That’s why Jesus died on the cross so that we may call on his name and confess are sin and believe in are heart. We give are struggles and trust in Him. You have a choice of how you live your life. Not in the past. Not in the future, but in the present. As it says in Matthew not to worry about yesterday or tomorrow but live in today. God every day I give you and every day you give me to follow you. How will you choose to live the life He has given you?
