With each day that passes I get closer and closer to training camp, and before I know it Launch date! With all of these different emotions building up inside of me it's hard some days to reign them all in. It feels like at one moment I am just Tabby living my normal life with work, commitments to help out with Church related programs, spending time with friends/family, but the next moment I am completely in WR mode thinking about gear, vaccines, and fundraising. It's crazy! Here's a look at some of the things I am trying to juggle at the moment: This Saturday is my first fund raising event and I am trying to nail down the last few details, I just finished writing my talk for the Chrys/Cross I am going to be a part of this November and will present it to the other leaders this coming Tuesday, AND I had my first night of co-leading our middle school girl's AWANA group last night. SHEW. It's been busy for me lately.
I am going to be honest with you, I have been having a little trouble keeping my focus on the one of who blessed me with these opportunities instead of just trying to meet deadlines and worrying about all that is going on. I know that God is just waiting for me to not be so consumed with trying to manage my life and let Him do what He does best. So I started something new a few days back that I will try and continue in the coming weeks. I am trying to make sure I stop and praise God for all of His blessings, deliberately spend time in His presence worshipping Him through reading His word, and being in a constant state of prayer and surrender. It's not going to be easy, because it never has, but I have complete confidence that God will help me through this.
One of the things that God has been talking to me about lately is what it means to truely worship Him…what does worship actually look like in our lives today? Well when He asked me this question I have to admit I was thinking with my programmed church answers. You know the ones, go to church and do the routine, go to your small group, smile when you don't want to, and don't cuss. Done and done right? Wrong. Worship comes in so many forms in our lives. Censoring what we listen to and watch is worship, honoring the leaders in your life (yes, this includes the big boss/manager/teacher/preacher that you may not really like), and showing love to people that have yet to show you love. Don't get me wrong I love going to Church or a worship service and being able to corporately worship our King with my brothers and sisters in Him, but how many times do I just go into "church" mode and just go through the routine with no heart in it? The answer is more often than I'd like. I'm definitally feeling the song "The Heart of Worship" right now. Where our center is focusing on God and how much we love Him. True genuine heart-felt worship is amazing! It's refreshing. It's energizing. It also promotes growth in our relationship with Christ. As I learn and grow in my faith I find more and more ways to let my heart truely long for God and learn how to listen for God's voice I am encouraged. These comfortable daily routines need to be made uncomfortable to me, as Christians we are supposed to stand out…right? We shouldn't be okay with that cushy 9-5 job and our evening tv show schedule. We should be longing for ways to be uncomfortable and maybe even embarrased and be forced to see everyone in their underwear type of thing. This is the WR for me. I don't preach. I don't regularly get up in front of people just for funzies. I don't want to have to consume my weight in lomotil. I don't want to discover that I have a 3' long worm living inside me from the water I drank. I definitally do not want to eat body parts of animals that shouldn't ever be eaten, you know what I'm talking about. BUT because I know Jesus and He is filling me with His own heart and desires I strangely do want these things. They scare the pants off of me, truely. I'm thinking that this is where the adventure part of this trip comes in haha.
So please pray for me. Pray that God will grow me and shape me into the young women of Christ I should be. Pray that I keep Him as my center focus and that all of the credit goes stright to HIm. Pray that God will fully provide for my financial needs for this trip because I struggle with this a lot. Pray that my team and I will be living examples of Christ in every way possible and that personalities will not clash at training camp.
As you pray for me I am praying for you also. I pray that God will use me as a light and example of His heart through this journey. That you will be encouraged through my posts and trip. That I will be more servant-like in my attitude to each of you.
God is calling us all to more than conquerors through Him, are you ready to rock the world with me for God's glory? If you agree with what I am saying and want to see me reach the point of being absolutely broken before God by facing my fears and trusting in His strength then also please pray about supporting me financially. If God is calling you to support me and my journey to know Him more intimately then please visit my "Support Me" tab to your left. If you can't donate then please join me as a prayer warrior! I WANT ALL OF THE PRAYER I CAN GET FOR THIS TRIP. Don't hesitate to contact me if you have questions or even have a prayer request you would like to have me join praying with you about. God WILL bless each of you for helping me in anyway because this is His journey! Be looking for an update early next week about how my fundraiser went! As always thanks for reading 🙂
