Over the past few weeks, as I’ve been working on fundraising and getting things settle for this trip I have found that people are not nearly as supportive as I had initially anticipated. There have been a few people who do not believe that going on a mission trip for the Lord is a healthy decision. Obviously I potently disagree with this outlook, however it has not been easy being so forwardly challenged with this opinion. My soul feels tired. 
I am stressed and fundraising has not gone as I had hoped. I understand fundraising is hard, a challenge because people do not have the finances to give when they reap no tangible benefit, however I had hoped that it would at least be making progress by now. My account has, at this point, not received a single donation which has been discouraging. My superior at work has been verbally disapproving of the mission, which makes going to work uncomfortable and there are many things yet to be done before I can begin to relax. I hope that the alumni who is to contact me gets in contact with me shortly so I can have some of my questions answered and I am looking forward to being able to sleep at night without having nightmares about not being able to go. I know this is where the Lord wants me, I know this is the right thing to do and I cannot wait to leave on this amazing adventure. I am just counting down the days until these stresses are behind me. I just want to my soul to not feel so exhausted from the stress. I have no positive end to this; I am not 100% sure why I am even writing it. Prayers….prayers are my positive end. 
God tells me “Be still and know that I am God.” Psalm 46:10.
Thanks for reading.
Tabbi
