Stepping into a huge life change such as the World Race can be a bit overwhelming at times.
In fact, I have found myself riding a roller coaster of emotions since the process has begun. Most days I am 100% sure that this is where God is leading me; I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is precisely what God has created me for and has been leading me toward since that day I first began walking with Him. Then there are some days when doubts crowd my thoughts, and the burden of preparation coupled with the fear of the unknown weigh down on me like the 40-pound pack I'll be living out of next year.
Why can't I be steady? Why can't my faith be so big, every single day, that Satan's attacks merely bounce off me?
I know in my heart of hearts that this is where God wants me to go. But what am I supposed to do with the doubts and fears which threaten to undo me? The answer is simple: run back to the Lord. Back to my Father's arms, the only place I can find comfort and security. The things of this world, the external signs of so-called security– money, a job, a house, etc–they are only temporary and could pass away in the blink of an eye.
"So don’t be afraid, little flock. For it gives your Father great happiness to give you the Kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to those in need. This will store up treasure for you in heaven! And the purses of heaven never get old or develop holes. Your treasure will be safe; no thief can steal it and no moth can destroy it. Wherever your treasure is, there the desires of your heart will also be." -Luke 12:32-34
The God of the Universe is eternal. He is my Rock and my Refuge. He knows what is best for His children, and He will not lead me astray. These are the things I must claim daily. I must surrender the doubt and the fear daily at the foot of the cross. The Lord will provide for my every need, both now, overseas, and when I return.
Really, what have I to fear? Not a thing, not a thing.
