“He said to them, “It is not for you to know times or seasons that the Father has fixed by his own authority.” ~ Acts 1:7
The time to go is never going to be perfect. Saying “Yes” is never going to be ideal that all of life’s factors aline and I don’t have something nagging in the back of my head saying, “this is more important.” We reason with ourselves that the “this is more important” is truly more important than the calling the Lord has given us upon our lives.
Life has been insane lately. With each day passing I feel like I am stepping deeper into the ocean of what needs to be done before I leave. The waves are getting higher and I am getting tired. Lists of thoughts wake me up at 4:30 every morning nagging me that there just isn’t enough time. I lie awake thinking about all that needs done, thinking about loved ones and worrying about if they will be okay while I am gone.
Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. ~Isaiah 40:30-33
I’ve let life get in the way of reality lately. News flash Sydney: You are not in control of ANYTHING. Whoops, sorry Lord. My B. I know, I know. I am literally incapable of controlling if my loved ones will be okay, if everyone will stay on the right path, etc. Nope. You really don’t want me to control that. THE WORLD WOULD BE UP IN FLAMES. period.
I’ve come to the conclusion, the very obvious conclusion, but conclusion none the less that there is never going to be such a thing as perfect timing in my fleshly eyes. I will always find a reason that the “Yes” I so willingly spoke can wait. For my flesh I will always find a reason to say: “maybe later, God.” Here is the thing though, I know my flesh is wrong. Satan gets all up in my brain and stirs right with wrong and whoop, there goets “yes” and it turns into “Maybe later.” Well, I am here to say that despite my disappearance from this blog, I am not letting my “yes” be turned into “maybe later.” I am still partaking in the World Race July 2015 T SQUAD. WOOP WOOP!
Faithfulness to God in the “yes” of His calling upon my life is what I am trying to keep intact. As much as I want to protect and control thing I know it is not my job, nor my timing. The Lord has called and I loudly said: “here I am, send me!” No, there is no such thing as perfect timing in my eyes. I am a sinner. How could there be anything perfect about my life? Here is something though, isn’t staying true to our “yes” part of being faithful to the calling of God? Isn’t part of the “yes” laying down the fact that you don’t have control and letting God handle it all? News flash number two: HE. HAS. GOT. THIS. What?! The perfect, almighty God that spoke this whole world into being and made our slate clean has got THIS?!?! Who. Knew. Oh, thats right, I did. Duh, Sydney. We let satan and the world get in the way of the only real definition of perfection. So, of course there will always be something to tempt me to stay home and basically tell God that He isn’t big enough to handle everything at home and everything over seas, but I am not going to say that to Him. I know He is big enough. His timing is perfect. He is perfect.
My “yes” still stands.
To wait on God means to pause and soberly consider our own inadequacy and the Lord’s all-sufficiency, and to seek counsel and help from the Lord, and to hope in Him (Psm. 33:20-22; Isa. 8:17)… The folly of not waiting for God is that we forfeit the blessing of having God work for us. The evil of not waiting on God is that we oppose God’s will to exalt Himself in mercy. ~John Piper
** Also It is a prayer of mine to be fully funded before I leave. I am about 6,000 dollars away from reaching my goal. If you feel called to donate click the ever so handy link on the left hand side that says Support Me! In addition, with anything when you follow after the calling the Lord has placed on your life the attacks of satan strengthen. With that being said please keep my squad and I in your prayers as we prepare to leave.
Thank you and I love you all!
