This is a simple thank you.
Over this year God has shown me over and over again that he is my provider, he is my protector. Me being human…I still have my doubts at times. Something happened today that blew me away…really this week, has just been a build of God showing his love but this made the love spill over the top.
Tonight my mother called me into the computer room, and I didn’t know what she was going to show me, some video on the computer, something funny, you know the usual. She just says, “Look.�, and pointed. It was my world race account. I don’t know the people that supported me but it brought me to tears. I almost couldn’t believe it. I let out a little celebration yell and fell to the ground.
Something that seems so simple right? And brought me to the ground and to tears. To me it was something so much bigger than that, so much bigger than money, it is a promise. A promise of what is to come, a promise of what has happened.
Thank you, every single one of you. This year has meant so much to me and there is no may I could have done it without you. Thank you for responding to his invitation. Thank you for following what you believe he has called you to do, because in doing so you have loved me more than you can imagine during this time. Thank you for the prayers. Thank you for all that you have done that I may not even know. Seriously I can’t get over it, it is one of those things that I can’t put into words, but if you saw me right now, you would see the tears of joy streaming down my face.
My heart is being set on fire. (Red hot heart, ice cold mind – Anthony Chapman) There is this yearning that is deep inside me, that is coming out. Slowly in the waiting, (that is sometimes incredibly hard) God is revealing to me more of who he is.
It took me months to allow myself to feel his love, to receive it. It has taken me time to receive the little things that he does for me all the time. Not just receive them, because sometimes that is a lot easier to just receive the gift without thinking. 
I looked up receive and these are some of the words I got:
To hear, listen to; to respond to, react to.
To accept, to sustain, undergo, meet with.
Then I looked up accept:
to gain, to take responsibility for, to agree.
to regard as true, to trust, to follow, to respect, to surrender to.
to endure, to submit to, to embrace, to receive favorably.
So not to just receive the gift, accept and receive the gift that has been given, by letting the gifts into my heart for the purpose that they are, for what is behind the gift.
This is showing me his love in a new way.
Slowly he is showing me how he IS in control.
And in showing me, what is my response going to be?
It is hard letting go.
To not do things out of my own strength and power.
To not worry about if something is going to happen or not.
It is hard waiting.
To know that there really is no other way.
The only thing that I can do is wait.
But in the waiting it makes the gift so much better.
What the gift is meant to be.
He knows the time when things need to come. He knows where our heart is and if we can even receive it. Truly I say this is a gift that I will never forget, the icing on the cake.
Live in the Love.
