So, we have moved onto our new location and dived in. We are closer to Penang Island. Praise the Lord for being able to flush the toilet and running water in the bathroom sink! Our contact is Janet and we are staying in The House of Timothy. A house dedicated for ministry to women. I am excited to continue on as my heart for Malaysia grows and pray I get to know my new team more. Many things to be excited about though…
For some reason as a team we seem to be overtired and struggle staying awake at times. I feel like I am sleeping at night but I am waking up often. Considering it is effecting our whole team I have an inkling there might be an energy thief around!
No need to fear for it has not stopped us from moving forward, going to peoples homes and praying for them, starting to climb a mountain and get hissed at and chased by wild monkeys, and preparing for presentations and such for Sunday… we will do anything God calls us to do and depend on His strength!
It would be nice though to feel more energized so please pray for us to be rejuvenated and to kick the thief’s butt if that is the case. Nothing is impossible for God (Luke 1:37) so I know our time here will be used no matter how we feel. I want to see more freedom, more healing, more life and light being poured into this nation and that is what keeps my eyes open even when it is a struggle. I don’t want to miss out on being a part and seeing all that God is doing and so I will not let this get me down.
In the midst of this tiredness God is working on me to learn more humility. To let go of more things that seem important but in the scheme of things are not, such as which way we walk to the mall. To stop and realize more and more who God is and that is humbling. The idols we pass and have to see spark something in me every time and I desire to see them fall on their face to acknowledge the true and only God! I just finished reading a book by Matt Redman called “Facedown” and it challenged me to see God so clearly that all else melts away, that I am overjoyed and trembling at the same time, that I will be in awe in the true sense of the word, yet feel intimate with Him at the same time. Doesn’t seem possible, especially when I feel so tired and worn out, but for Him all things are possible so I am asking Him to show me, teach me, stretch me, humble me, terrify me, have mercy on me, and love me all at once. I want to be drawn down to the ground, to my knees, and onto my face in response to Him! I don’t care if I am tired.. this is my desire and I pray Jesus help me, open my eyes to see the Father.
I don’t know where you are at. You might be tired like me, you might be bursting with Joy, you might just be at peace, or you could be in pain, but I encourage you to seek God, not just for you plight but to know Him more, to be okay with not understanding Him completely yet wanting to be close all the same! So, if you will join me in this.. ask God to reveal Himself to you to the point you will be drawn down to your face in response to His Glory, His Splendor! It will be beautiful though terrifying and He is so loving He will bring you down gently. Let everything you know, everything you see, every thought, every physical hurt, just everything melt away in response to God the Father through Jesus by the Holy Spirit and experience true AWE.
