It has been an intense and amazing last 8 days here in Georgia! There is so much I could go into but I have not time nor do I want to you to have to spend half an hour getting to the comments section. So, I will just dive in…
On a night out at a campfire one of the coaches spoke about the spirit of rejection. He had an hard but redeeming story. As he spoke I began to get pictures in my mind of ways and times I have felt rejected in the past. I had not realized before how strong that was in me and how it effected my relationships and view of life around me. We prayed all at once and I was challenged to go through and forgive all those I had seen. I did. How freeing!! Heading back to the camp site I felt stuffy from all the tears yet lighter than I ever felt before. Though I knew the journey was not complete.
The next morning we went out into a field and talked about grieving. Then spent a couple hours by ourselves to journal and pray. God brought to me some of the things I hadn’t realized or forgiven the night before. So I wrote and wrote. And as I forgave my father, which I hadn’t known I needed to before that time, it freed me up to speak to God as my Father. I have always trusted God as my provider and had intimacy with Jesus but until that day I had not felt any intimacy with God the Father. I cried in his arms and felt his love and acceptance deeply. It was wonderful.
So, with the spirit of rejection not in me anymore, though trying to get back in, I am now on a growth journey to learn to live out who I am as accepted. I trust and have hope that as my Father works with me on this all who know me will see some of those more destructive behaviors fade away in my life… it will not always be easy but it is the most joyful road I’ve step on in almost 6 years.
For anyone reading who feels rejected I hope you will find hope in knowing that Father God desires to accept you if you let him.
Love & Life to all. Thanks for reading, please pray for me, and please support me if you can.
