Two Confessions:
1. I am a certified, bona-fide control freak (just ask anyone I know). Oh, I can go with the flow when relaxing or hanging with friends (aka for short period of time), but give me a task to do and I will have a plan attached shortly… Or maybe two or more… I'm good with a plan. I like plans. I'm even ok with plans changing as long as it's not in a "you-now-have-to-rethink-the-whole-plan-and-you-have-six-hours-and-everyone's-counting-on-you" kind of way. Slowly, I am learning to let go. I am learning that things have a way of working out even if I don't have every minute detail mapped out. I'm learning freedom is found in letting yourself follow. Which leads to…
2. Being a control freak, I fake knowing what I am doing more often than I want to admit. The truly scary part is that I have to be at least slightly convincing because often times, I end up in charge while having no clue what's going on. While I don't mind the leadership role, I honestly prefer not to have it. I'm good with being the one who is following clear directions and getting a job done well. I am realizing that I am happier simply serving people. To be able to just serve, I have to not act like I know what I'm doing, but to admit that I don't know what to do next; to following someone else's lead.
A random quirk (just for fun):
Given a choice between my couch or my bed… I prefer to sleep on the couch.
That's all for now!
