Five Weeks Ago
- I had my life 'put together.' My apartment was spotless. I had a job. I had dreams of a relaxing summer, working at a coffee shop, and hanging out with my boyfriend.
Well God completely changed all of that!
- My spotless apartment changed to selling my belongings and moving into my amazing friend's house. My room has changed from being upset about my bed not being made into a room full of passport photos, sheets everywhere, clothes spread out, boxes from the move, and World Race gear covering my floors. Soon it will change to this…!
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Lesson: Cleanliness used to be a control thing for me. I wanted to have everything 'put together.' God loves me no matter if my life is put together or a big old mess.
- I love shopping and creating. However, this month has been selling and disposing of things.
Lesson: There is so much freedom when you get rid of the things of this world. I went to training camp in Georgia a week ago to prepare for the Race. At training camp, we lived out of our backpack for the week. There is so much freedom in not worrying about what you look like, what you will eat, what you will where and just spending time with people and God. Three of us got away during training camp; even though I've heard it before, these words came alive to us then.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes?
- My plans from relaxing and working at a coffee shop changed to moving, selling my belongings, visiting home, going to training camp in Georgia, and then flying to go home to celebrate my Pop Pop's life.
Lesson learned: God's plan is so much greater. I have desired to relax; however, this month God has literally been 'blowing my socks off' as a co-worker stated. I have felt his presence and peace more than any other time in my life, despite all the chaos. I will write another blog about this later about what I experienced at training camp. I desire to live by His plan because it is so much greater than my own. I am so excited to go on this journey God has prepared rather than living in the comfort of my own 'little plan.' I yearn to give up control and wait on Him.
This was what I woke up to this morning! Thought I'd share
My Princess,
Wait on Me, My princess. My timing is always perfect. I know you're anxious about many things, and I see your passion for all the plans I have put in your heart. I know that you long to fly, and I see your enthusiasm. However, just as a winedresser nurtures the wine and waits patiently for the right moment to harvest the grapes, so too am I working tirelessly to prepare you to bear much fruit. Don't run ahead of Me or try to fly before My plans are complete. Your strength will fail you, and your dreams will wither away.
Trust Me that My dreams for you are far greater than you can dream on your own. You will run farther and soar higher if you will patiently wait for the season of My blessing. Draw close to Me now, and I promise that this season of waiting will bring you the sweetest of rewards.
"BUT THOSE WHO WAIT ON THE LORD WILL FIND NEW STRENGTH. THEY WILL FLY HIGH ON WINGS LIKE EAGLES. THEY WILL RUN AND NOT GROW WEARY. THEY WILL WALK AND NOT FAINT."
ISAIAH 40:31
