Well folks. I think the race is finally getting to me… I’m becoming an introvert! In Mozambique I spent tons of time in my tent either reading, listening to music, or journaling. Last month I spent a good bit of time being by myself and this month all I’ve wanted to do is sit at the computer and blog. It’s either that or the little bit of J that I have in me panicked today. Either way I noticed that I was very over stimulated socially and mentally. It’s crazy how much things can change on the race.
Before the race I spent tons of time, too much really, in my room by myself, online or playing with my dog, and when it came to socialize my extrovert would go nuts! There wasn’t a good balance in my life. It was like binge socializing almost. Even after training camp I went through somewhat of a withdrawal that might have even a bit of a spiritual attack. Now that I’m on the race I slowly find myself more and more wanting to draw back a little and just journal or blog or something that brings me back to sanity.
What happened today was after we had a briefing on ministry and tons of folks were doing tons of things, but there was no set schedule. I personally needed to get a few blogs uploaded and really just wanted to type on the computer all day. Making this happen presented a bit of a challenge. For some reason my mind wanted to go into productivity mode today. That’s where I think I messed up. I just needed to rest and for some reason my mind went into to this primal fight or flight mode, unfortunately I chose fight.
Future racers, sometimes it’s just smarter to stay back and chill. Figure out what (if anything) really needs to be done that day. Looking back on it now, I wish I would have just chilled. I could have asked to use someone’s computer and then done yoga with my homies like I said I was gonna do. It sorta speaks into what I think God has for me this month… Self-control. This was an example of not having self-control in my social life. God has shown me other areas of my life where self-control needs to happen. Cough Cough FINANCES! Sorry I think the key board is catching a cold.
Be blessed,
Steven Buffington
