We are off to Thailand tomorrow. After a week of debrief in Nairobi which included team time, worship and team changes. We are off.
My new team came together for the first time today and discussed what the Lord had been speaking to us and the vision of where He was leading us.
It came together clearly in a moment as we all discussed dreams and visions of going deeper. Allowing the Lord to take us into the deep waters. Allowing ourselves to be taken to new depths and new places where only the Lord can and will sustain us.
Before team changes my heart was a mix of emotions. I loved my old team. We worked great together. We loved each other, loved the Lord and challenged each other in different ways. As team changes came upon us. I found myself asking God the same questions over and over.
Do I believe that you, God, are enough?
Do I believe that you, God, are good?
Do I believe that you, God, have my best interest at heart?
Am I willing to give up the control (that I think that I have) fully and completely?
As I sat before Him asking myself these questions and Him, I realized that at times it is hard for me to answer yes. I find that at times it is hard for me to say Yes to the Lord. But when I do, there is beauty, there is life and there is freedom.
Even when God’s plan is different than mine (which is a good thing) because His plan is truly superior, to anything that I could come up with.
I want to be a person that says Yes to the Lord.
So as I processed my emotions before team changes and after I know that the Lord allowed our squad to be shaken up for a reason and purpose. That He blessed our squad leaders with knowledge and wisdom and insight to what needed to be done. So that we as a body of one under Christ we can walk into Thailand as one unite.
I see the benefits that this has done in my relationship with the Lord. Although change is still at times a hard thing for me to handle, the Lord continues to speak that with Him all things are possible.
I am blessed that our God is a God of grace who allows my wandering heart to seek Him, to ask tough questions and to run into His open arms when I realize what I knew all along. That all I need is Him and that He is more than enough.
So I am excited for this next season. New teams. New continent. Deep waters.
