The start of life wasn’t the easiest for me. In a lot of cases children have a mother and father who are there and love there kids. It all started from the beginning my biological mother was raped by her father and was forced to raise the child. My mother fell hard into drugs and alcohol and when she had me my biological father left. You see my father had other kids and family in Mexico so he decided to go back when I was born. During that short time before I was adopted me and my brother had been molested, abused, and very starved. When my bio logical mother decided to give me and my brother we were in intensive care. We had African bellies and bugs and worms and we were very broken and abused mentally and physically. Its so incredible God saved me. God knew that If I had stayed in that situation I would have died. I was adopted by my mom and dad now. I thank god for them because they introduced us to Jesus. I under went a lot of therapy for issues that I was having growing up and they could tell I had been molested. I ust to have a lot of dreams of guys touching me and me likeing it. I use to take a lot of showers a day because I always felt dirty.I had a hard time growing up the rejection and abandonment I felt was the worst when friends hurt me or someone made fun of me it hurt the root of me that was still so still hurt. I remember in elementary school praying when the few times I was alone at recess, I would sing and feel the presence of God. I didn’t understand that’s what I was feeling till later on. I would do attention seeking behaviors because I wanted people to notice me if they didn’t I felt rejected and unimportant. I went to church growing up and loved god. But I wasn’t truly living and walking with him till the end of high school. And of course I fell away and start filling voids with alcohol and men and sinning in general. I loved drinking and having a boyfriend because it made me happy. I was so depressed even though I had so many friends. The funny thing is I always knew God had a plan for me. He has been the only constant and friend of mine that has never let me down or hurt me. And I never regreted anything in my life because now I can help others around me that have been through the same abuse and rejection that I have been through I can relate to them more than the average person that hasn’t gone through what I have. God uses the broken for his glory. I cant wait to go out to Mozambique, Malawi, Zambia, Phillippines, Peru, Chile, Argentina, Thailand, Cambodia, Colombia & equador and minister and help through Jesus save and heal the broken hearted. I love to worship God and sing I always have. A year I got proficiced over and God said that I was going to sing to the nations. I really believe that calling. I am still transforming into the women of God and making changes in my life to glorify him and I know on this trip he will change me to. 🙂
