This month has been hard, but wonderful at the same time. Our team is constantly fighting spiritual warfare, but we also see God working everyday. I’ve endured hard times lately, but I keep pressing on. A couple of days after my robbery I find out that now my precious grandma is in the hospital. I’m not even surprised anymore when bad things happen…Today I was hit with feeling torn between two places: home and here. My family is at home hurting, but I can’t be there with them. That kills my heart. Then, I look around at people hurting here, and I know I’m here for a reason too.
Our team had the privilege to reach out to a community to help a three week old church. Honestly, my mind and heart were not in the right place. My mind was thinking about all kinds of things, but I knew I needed to prepare myself for this day. I asked God to get all distractions and emotions from my mind so I could be present in our ministry. We were put into pairs with a Pilipino person in case of language barriers. The first two houses I went to, my partner had to do all the talking because they did not know English. We had time for one more house and I thought I wouldn’t be able to say much again. This house has a mom and her two daughters, ages twenty-one and twenty-four. And they spoke English!
I shared with them how much God loves them, and they actually already have head knowledge of who Jesus is and how to get to heaven when they die, they’ve just never done it. I talked with the older sister first and prayed for her, then had her repeat after me to ask for salvation. It felt awkward at first because I’ve never done it, and I didn’t know if I was wording it right! But as I was praying with her, it’s like my heart lit up. It’s hard to explain, but it’s like my heart was coming alive as I was praying with a girl to ask Jesus to make her heart come alive for the first time. Next, the sister came and sat next to me and I did the same thing. The prayer was worded differently, but she accepted too! I have never led anyone before! So crazy! The pastor’s wife I was with said, “Two points for you! You will have a crown in heaven for this!”
I’m just amazed at how a simple prayer to refresh my mind for God’s purpose that day could lead to what it led to. I am just so blessed that God used me to do that, it wasn’t my doing at all! I know Satan was trying to discourage me all morning because of what was going to take place that afternoon.
