I have always been familiar with the verse Luke 11:9-10 “So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will
find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks find; and to him who knocks, the
door will be opened.”
I have always applied this verse to my life in dealing with the big things, such as my calling, my future plans and big
decisions that I have to make.
When it says, “Everyone who asks receives…” It doesn’t mean that you will not get if you don’t ask, but it means that until
you come to the point of asking, you will not receive. To be able to receive something from God requires being in
the right relationship and oneness with Him, knowing that these things come from Him.
The word “ask” actually means “beg.” Some people are poor enough to be interested in their poverty while the rest of us are
poor spiritually to even show our interest. We will never receive if we ask with a certain result in mind because then we
would just be asking out of our own lust and self interest – not out of our own poverty. A pauper doesn’t ask out of any
reason other than the hopeless condition of his poverty. He is not ashamed to beg.
“Blessed are the poor (paupers) in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” [Matthew 5:3]
i beg for you to move
i beg for you to move
i beg for you to break through
i beg for you to move
i beg for you to move
i beg for you to break through
Lately, I have had this immense desire to depend solely on God for EVERYTHING – not just the big things that I go to Him for
when I have nowhere else to turn, like my calling or future plans. I have been praying every night for God to be my alarm
clock and to wake me up in the morning. You see, I sleep like a rock. I can fall asleep anytime, anywhere and I can sleep
through anything. So, it’s not shocking that it takes about 3 alarm clocks to wake me up in the morning. Most of my friends are familiar with this. In my first few years of college, I would have my best friends call me to wake me up in the morning because I would never hear my alarm clocks, but I would for some reason hear my cell phone ringing.
And here on the race, my alarm clock has become quite an annoyance to the rest of my team because it goes off for about an
hour before I even hear it and I end up waking up to my teammates yelling my name or throwing pillows at me (Tonya!) in
frustration.
I remember back in the beginning my team leader, Kim Jerkins, told me that she never used an alarm clock because God was her alarm clock. At first I was kind of doubtful and didn’t think that God would ever do that with me, but at the same time I
found it quite fascinating that she didn’t have to depend on an alarm clock and would just wake up.
It has truly been my heart’s desire to HAVE to depend on God for EVERYTHING. What better way to wake up than for GOD to wake me up!? My heart is just in love with that. So far, for the past 3 days God has been waking me up. Praise HIM! I have not even pulled out my alarm clock at all this month. It has been such a blessing. I no longer want to depend on worldly things, even
if it is something as small as an alarm clock. I want God to be the ONLY one I am depending on – in EVERY aspect of life.
I have also been praying more about spiritual gifts. I dream a lot and most times I remember my dreams, but I have never been
able to interpret them. So I have been praying each night before I fall asleep that God will speak to me in my dreams and that
He will give me interpretations of them. It was amazing because the first night I prayed this, I had several dreams. I woke up
in the middle of the night and immediately prayed and asked for an interpretation and He gave it to me! I have been dreaming
every night since and have received more interpretations. However, I have a really short term memory and every morning when
I wake up I forget the dream and interpretation. So, I have been praying that I will start to remember these.
I don’t think I have ever had such joy to lay down each night, praying and knowing that God is going to give me dreams and
interpretations of those dreams and then HE will be the one to wake me up in the morning.
I am so in love!
PRAISE YOU FATHER!
